hmmmm
you know i try not to hurt other people because i dont like to be hurt, but it seems that i end up hurting someone anyway. I miss the simple things and want it to go back to being simple again. Ive gotten my life on track again but need a devoted family who wont talk about me behind my back or judge me for things that i do. Just be there to support me and understand me, Im not sure if that will ever happen. I want to love and to be loved again, i want to start my career and get away from it all. It seems to me that it was a whole lot easier to have the whole world when all i wanted to do was grow up but now that i am grown up all i want to do is go back to the way things were when i stressed over stupid little things that really had no importance at all. It's funny how life works, and to all of you who like to write things to me without leaving your name you must remember that people interpret things different and may take things the wrong way or in a way you didnt want them to come out so if you leave your name or tell me that you wrote it i might understand the notes a little better. You know i really thought that i was going to have it on easy street when i wrote my last entry but i just feel more guilt and hurt and alone than ever before, whats wrong with the things that i want and why cant i just have them? If you know the answer to what im asking (without making me sad) please tell me, but for now...............
teenie
teenie