well my life officialy sucks rite now, and for ever.....
Lets see here, i had a girlfriend...but dumped her because i couldnt stop thinking of another girl...finding out that this other girl doesnt even like me, so now i cant get a girlfriend(i cant go back out with that other girl, shed think of me like im desperate, or that i want her back...which i dont)i prolly wont ever get laid.....not that its a big deal, just somthing that would be nice, i doubt any girl i know likes me more than a friend, i know that i wont get another girlfriend till im probly 16 or 17, if im lucky.....in a few months....not of my friends can ever get along longer than a day, they always two face each other, i only have like four friends..........none of my friends ever come over, i cant get a good tan, or get in the shape that i want to be in, my parents are lazy and dont care about me....or even do anything around the house(my mom scrap books all fucking day, and my dad sits on the couch and types on the computer and watches tv..all day...)i dont have a job, so i dont have any money, which makes me poor, im not smart, people depend to much on me for things....drives me crazy, everyone but like two people two face me, and say things behind my back..since they dont have the balls to say it to my face...UGH! i kno for sure that, im way to nice to people.....i hate that, i know that, thats gonna change now....it pisses me off....i try to be nice, and nothing good comes out of it....my brother, depends on me to cook hm stuff because he cant cook...HE BURNS TOAST, HOW RETARTED CAN HE FUCKING GET! my sister is sooooo anoying, i hate how people say that shes so cute, sure she is, but when theyre around her, they say that shes annoying, which is true...so she drives me and wat ever friends i have crazy....i can barley play the drums, since i never practice, now i suck, and even when i do practice, i still suck....all the girls i meet, or even know, especially ones ive dated...all think that my brother is hott, and has a nice ass....so much for me, "yea hi, how do ya do...oh by the way, ur brother is hott" ....."he has such a fine ass" OMFG, stop sayting that to me bout my brother, hes not single...so dont get ur hopes up! JESUS FUCKING CRIST! my life blows ass at the moment.....i have so much more to say, but its not like anyone would read this anyway...so it doesnt matter......
im gonna go bore myself somemore.....i have nothing better to do anyways, i have no friends, or a girlfriend....so what else is ther to do.....*sigh*....
i kno that suicide aint the way, even tho my life really isnt worth it, im having way to many proiblems, i cant deal with them all, i cant even start to explain them all....
my mind is racing, thoughts going in and not out, things i should have forgotten a long time ago, but never went away, my concious is the worst thing ever, i hate it, it just makes me feel worse that what i already feel...
im not the most popular dude in school, that doesnt bother me that much, but knowing that all the popular kids, and other pricks tease me and shit, just bothers me...nocking my books out of my hands, pushing me, throwing shit at me..ARG...i hate them all! they can all rot in hell for all i care....
it seems that all i use this LJ thing for, is to complain about how my life sux and how bored i get, nothing good ever happens to me anymore, no girl friends, no trips to the movies, no trips to the golf range, or concerts, or anything like that...especially now that i have to pay for myself now...which i cant, since i dont have any money to do so...IM ONLY 15 YEARS OLD, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT, ILL HAVE A JOB AND HAVE ALOT OF MONEY? WELL I DONT HAVE A JOB, OR A GIRLFRIEND, OR MONEY, OR ANY FRIENDS THAT DONT TEO FACE ME, OR ANYTHING NICE TO WEAR, OR A NICE.....COMFORTING FAMILY...MY FAMILY DOESNT EVEN KNOW THAT I FUCKING EXIST! THEY ALWAYS FORGET ABOUT ME....YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW THAT MAKES ME FEEL.....THEY ALL NOTICE ADAM, HE PLAYS GUITAR, AND SEEMS TO BE THE FAMILY FAVORITE, I TRY TO BLEND IN....BUT I STILL DONT GET NOTICED...JUST BECAUSE IM THE OLDEST................UGH, DRIVES ME SO FUCKING CRAZY, OMFG, THEY CANT HELP BUT TO NOTICE BETH, SHES THE YOUNGEST.....AND THEY NEVER LAUGH AT MY REMARKS OR JOKES....I HATE THAT, THEY DONT EVEN PRETEND TO LAUGH TO MAKE ME FEEL GOOD, THEY JUST STARE...AND CALL ME A DUMB ASS.....OR SOME SHIT LIKE THAT.....
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........................................................................................my life sucks so much......i need therapy so bad........suicide.....ARG!
i g2g.....later
im gonna go bore myself somemore.....i have nothing better to do anyways, i have no friends, or a girlfriend....so what else is ther to do.....*sigh*....
i kno that suicide aint the way, even tho my life really isnt worth it, im having way to many proiblems, i cant deal with them all, i cant even start to explain them all....
my mind is racing, thoughts going in and not out, things i should have forgotten a long time ago, but never went away, my concious is the worst thing ever, i hate it, it just makes me feel worse that what i already feel...
im not the most popular dude in school, that doesnt bother me that much, but knowing that all the popular kids, and other pricks tease me and shit, just bothers me...nocking my books out of my hands, pushing me, throwing shit at me..ARG...i hate them all! they can all rot in hell for all i care....
it seems that all i use this LJ thing for, is to complain about how my life sux and how bored i get, nothing good ever happens to me anymore, no girl friends, no trips to the movies, no trips to the golf range, or concerts, or anything like that...especially now that i have to pay for myself now...which i cant, since i dont have any money to do so...IM ONLY 15 YEARS OLD, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT, ILL HAVE A JOB AND HAVE ALOT OF MONEY? WELL I DONT HAVE A JOB, OR A GIRLFRIEND, OR MONEY, OR ANY FRIENDS THAT DONT TEO FACE ME, OR ANYTHING NICE TO WEAR, OR A NICE.....COMFORTING FAMILY...MY FAMILY DOESNT EVEN KNOW THAT I FUCKING EXIST! THEY ALWAYS FORGET ABOUT ME....YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW THAT MAKES ME FEEL.....THEY ALL NOTICE ADAM, HE PLAYS GUITAR, AND SEEMS TO BE THE FAMILY FAVORITE, I TRY TO BLEND IN....BUT I STILL DONT GET NOTICED...JUST BECAUSE IM THE OLDEST................UGH, DRIVES ME SO FUCKING CRAZY, OMFG, THEY CANT HELP BUT TO NOTICE BETH, SHES THE YOUNGEST.....AND THEY NEVER LAUGH AT MY REMARKS OR JOKES....I HATE THAT, THEY DONT EVEN PRETEND TO LAUGH TO MAKE ME FEEL GOOD, THEY JUST STARE...AND CALL ME A DUMB ASS.....OR SOME SHIT LIKE THAT.....
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........................................................................................my life sucks so much......i need therapy so bad........suicide.....ARG!
i g2g.....later