Resoluting
Well 05 is here. Sometimes, I feel like I put too much pressure on NYE. Where I am and what I'm doing at the stroke of midnight will be the bar in which I measure how the rest of my year will be. This year, I just let some of that pressure go and spent the evening partying it up with my closest friends. Some signs the new year started off right:
- When I walked in, this guy was all up over me and picking me up (30 seconds later he was all up over someone else but who cares). Then when I sat upstairs this other guy was chatting me up. Neither were my types (and I don't even remember their names) but it felt good to be noticed.
- I had initially planned to succumb to temptation on NYE, in my usual 'it's my last time this year' fashion. But the devil sat in my pocket until about 2am when I told him to go home. I lasted til about 4am and had a ball.
- I spend yesterday with some friends I hadn't seen in a long time, and had an awesome time! My 'meeting new people' thing may not be as desolate as I expected.
- Today, I was at the mall and lining up for pretzel bits (so much for resolution #2 below). I gave the girl my order not realizing I had budded in front of someone else. When I finally realized it I had already paid and profusely apologized to the girl who I budded in front of (who happened to be a fob-type filipina). She was totally cool with it and said 'thank you, though, for your concern, it's refreshing'. I told her to have a nice day, and in turn, she made my day.
So far, so good. I hope this is a sign of good things to come.
I love yet hate the whole idea of new years resolutions. I mean, I shouldn't really need a date to tell me what I should strive for in the future. But at the same time I always make them because I want something to strive for, with a term to work on things in. So here are some:
- Focus on what makes me happy. Do things for me, but still be aware and considerate and appreciative of others.
- Eat heathier.
- Figure out what I really want in a relationship...and not be afraid to pursue that if I find it. But to know when to stop if he's just not that into me.
- Not just enjoy my life, but try and add to life.
- Keep things to myself more. I hate the g-word and I hate that it is the running joke that I know everything about everyone. I can't help it that I find out stuff. But I can help it if I spread it. (Unless it's celebrity gossip. That's still fair game, I need to keep people informed, heehee)
- Buy a new car. The car I want.
- Save up for the Philippines (whenever that may be)
- Decide - once and for all - where it is I want to be (this was on my list last year, I think)
- Have a memorable 30th birthday celebration
- Continue to serve a purpose and take nothing for granted
That's a hefty list. I hope I'm not setting myself up for disappointment...but if it's any consolation, I don't have a timeline, really...just things to continue to strive for...