CRAP
Right now I feel like shit..
Why am I so jealous all the time?
I just want to take everything I like with me, and move to a big fucking beautiful house in Greece. And there I'll get friends I won't get jealous on. And there I can bath and find a guy who loves me, and then I can stay there forever.
My FUCKING GOD how nice that would be.
But still I'm here, sitting at this fucking computer being jealous. And sad. And crap. FUCKING CRAP-SHIT-ASSHOLE.
Fucking me.
I just feel ... down. I'm not satisfied with ANYTHING right now. Why can't I be thin like everyone else? Why can't I be happy that I have my friends and STOP STOP STOP being jealous at them. WHY do they think that I am spoiled because I get things all the time?! I'm still the same person.
Okay, maybe I'm overreacting, but right now I don't give a fuck. Everything is just... GRRR. GAAAAAH
I'm getting mad here. I just want to...
I don't know, go crazy on something. Get my anger out on something. Like.. pillows. MY GOD how nice it would be to be in a big fucking hole filled with pillows, and then just go crazy at them. Or even better: A big fucking hole with pillows in a big fucking house in fucking Greece. And after I have been taking out my feeling over the pillows, I can go out and swim 2,000 miles in the big blue ocean. Then I can jump out of a cliff.
Everything of that would be nice. Except from the last one. If I'd do that I would die. And I don't want to die. But I don't want to have these fucking feelings inside me.
And fuck Tham. RIGHT NOW I could just have him in front of me and just beat him up. I just want to scream : "WHY AM I SO FUCKING IN LOVE WITH YOU!! WHY DO YOU KISS EVERYONE ELSE! WHY CAN'T YOU EVEN LOOK AT ME FRIENDLY??!! WHY CAN'T YOU SAT SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME GET A CLUE ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ME!!!! WHYY!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!
That would be so nice. But that would be so mean. And it's not his fault that I am getting mad here. But I just want him to OPEN UP for me!! Can he do that? NOOOOO
He goes kissing Fucking Lotta.
YES, he's together with Lotta YEEEEEEEEES my life SUUCKS right NOW!
Fuck this motherfucking fuckers-crap-shit ass-hole-GOD!!
So. Now I feel a little bit better.
Now THAT was a relive.
..............
*Breathe*
Sorry if I have hurted anyone by these words.
But right now I feel...
CRAZY
Why am I so jealous all the time?
I just want to take everything I like with me, and move to a big fucking beautiful house in Greece. And there I'll get friends I won't get jealous on. And there I can bath and find a guy who loves me, and then I can stay there forever.
My FUCKING GOD how nice that would be.
But still I'm here, sitting at this fucking computer being jealous. And sad. And crap. FUCKING CRAP-SHIT-ASSHOLE.
Fucking me.
I just feel ... down. I'm not satisfied with ANYTHING right now. Why can't I be thin like everyone else? Why can't I be happy that I have my friends and STOP STOP STOP being jealous at them. WHY do they think that I am spoiled because I get things all the time?! I'm still the same person.
Okay, maybe I'm overreacting, but right now I don't give a fuck. Everything is just... GRRR. GAAAAAH
I'm getting mad here. I just want to...
I don't know, go crazy on something. Get my anger out on something. Like.. pillows. MY GOD how nice it would be to be in a big fucking hole filled with pillows, and then just go crazy at them. Or even better: A big fucking hole with pillows in a big fucking house in fucking Greece. And after I have been taking out my feeling over the pillows, I can go out and swim 2,000 miles in the big blue ocean. Then I can jump out of a cliff.
Everything of that would be nice. Except from the last one. If I'd do that I would die. And I don't want to die. But I don't want to have these fucking feelings inside me.
And fuck Tham. RIGHT NOW I could just have him in front of me and just beat him up. I just want to scream : "WHY AM I SO FUCKING IN LOVE WITH YOU!! WHY DO YOU KISS EVERYONE ELSE! WHY CAN'T YOU EVEN LOOK AT ME FRIENDLY??!! WHY CAN'T YOU SAT SOMETHING THAT MAKES ME GET A CLUE ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ME!!!! WHYY!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!
That would be so nice. But that would be so mean. And it's not his fault that I am getting mad here. But I just want him to OPEN UP for me!! Can he do that? NOOOOO
He goes kissing Fucking Lotta.
YES, he's together with Lotta YEEEEEEEEES my life SUUCKS right NOW!
Fuck this motherfucking fuckers-crap-shit ass-hole-GOD!!
So. Now I feel a little bit better.
Now THAT was a relive.
..............
*Breathe*
Sorry if I have hurted anyone by these words.
But right now I feel...
CRAZY