Your thunder won't roll until the moon tears in half, baby

[teenageriotxo]

Ohhhh lordy. i've come to realize i get irritated exremeley easy. and when i get irritated, i'm a massive uncontrollable bitch. there's no changing that. and honestly, i don't think it should be changed. i was talking to a young boy, who i'm related to, and i swear, children are so much more brilliant than adults and teenagers think. he told me, "i probably wouldn't trade my life with anyone elses'. i guess after living 8 years with my body, my personality, my voice, and my routines. . .having someone elses' life would just seem unnatural to me."

a few other things he said to me were, "having what i have makes me stronger than much healthier people because i can tolerate all the pain. i never had a fear of needles because of it, and i know that i can still do anything i want to, i can be anything i want to be, i just have to approach it in a more difficult way."

i can't even believe an 8 year old was telling me all of this. i just wanted to hug him for hours and hours and hours.

i miss him, though. i really do. but i know i will see him again soon.

i love him.

P.S. I leave for utah today. mwahmwah to my family. annnnd i will write all of the terrible things that happened while i was gone. Cops and crackheads, terrorizing me in California. it was a huge deal.