Ugh

[teenagebabylon]

I'm so annoyingly moody. I don't like me very much. But I'm going to try to salvage my self-esteem a little and blame my period. Which I have, at least. It sucks having to be grateful for that annoyance. Bleh. I wish I could like, take myself or rather my personality on like While You Were Out or something and totally re-do it. I would try to not annoy myself so much, I would be nicer/kinder/more caring/sweeter/more empathetic. Eww. I just am not liking myself very much right now. I would become more reliable and responsible. I would become less dependant on other people, especially my parents and Travis, and on that note, I would try to become less clingy. I would try not to act so sullen. I would try to not be so mean to my siblings. I would not unconsciously take on the ditzy personality that I do at times, even though it's fun and even though I'm not really a ditz, at least I don't think. I would be more self-confident. I would be carefree yet I would keep my priorities straight. I would stick to my guns yet I would be less stubborn and more flexible. I would be more hard-working and take the initiative. And so on and so on.

I hate me. I don't see how anyone else can like me.

I'm also a vain, conceited, bitch.

And I know that's true. Wanna know how I know? Because Travis and I went to the store to get some stuff for my mommy and he impulsively grabbed some popsicles and we were standing in line and he handed them to me to hold and said "Here, you can hold these 'cause you're a cold-hearted bitch." Ouch.

He said he was just playing. But still... ouch.

The End.
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