pictures of me.
Is it just me (it probably is), but I've noticed that people on lj, unless they're in comms like fatshionista , seem unwilling to post photos of themselves on here. This is a matter that frustrates me, since I'd kind of like to know what some of my flist look like. Normally I'm left guessing and I make horrible misjudgements, normally in the area of mistaking black people for white, etc. (Oh yeah, random side note. Not that I think for a minute that anybody on my flist is remotely inclined to think this way, but any girl out there who has their heart set on marrying a white guy, trust me, I'd reconsider. They're not all that fabulous. I get that their pale skin is pretty, but there is a hell of a lot of merit in looking under that translucent skin and seeing what's within. Besides, pale skin isn't always pretty. A few close-ups of my skin will have you seeing why.)
Anyway, I thought I'd take a stand, and perhaps satisfy the curiosity of anybody who doesn't know what I look like, and post a few photos of myself. In all of these I'm posing in some way, so naturally I look worse than these irl. But you'll get a general idea of what I look like, I think.
All right. This is me in Germany, taken a few months ago. Unfortunately my hair is not that fantastic dark red colour anymore, since I don't really have the time, patience, or confidence in my looks in general to maintain it. Maybe when I'm out of uni I'll get more into it.
One of my personal all-time favourites. As you can see, my hair was AMAZING. My hair is naturally quite curly, and at the moment it's cut in such a way that is supposed to enhance my curls but currently just looks like a wildebeast because I can't be arsed putting mousse and shit through it. But at this stage of my life, which was about 3 years ago, I was arsed to straighten it and to put make-up on. It does make a difference, I have to say.
Bugger me it was cold that day. That's me looking a bit more natural. Again, my hair isn't that colour at the moment.
That's what colour my hair is atm. It's not bad, but I prefer the red, or better still the red and blonde stripes. Anyway, you can see that pulling my hair back does my appearance no favours, which is a shame because it would be so much easier for me to wear my hair pulled back every day and not be worried at how dramatically it hinders my appearance. My skin is, as you can see, so pale it's almost translucent, which I personally don't mind but the red cheeks have always been a source of annoyance for me. You can't see it in any of the shots, but the rest of my skin is marked with keratosis and scars from mozzie bites and acne, and more stretch marks than I think even the average fat person tends to have. The sensible part of me knows that a daily application of moisturiser with a hint of tanning lotion would hide all of those bits and bobs, but the stubborn part of me wants to believe that I can look beautifully pale and that tanning means I'm conforming to general society's belief that tanned skin looks better. I'll swallow my pride eventually.
So as you can see I'm fat, female and fair. I'm not 40 yet though, so I don't have to panic about my gall bladder just yet. :P
Anyway, I thought I'd take a stand, and perhaps satisfy the curiosity of anybody who doesn't know what I look like, and post a few photos of myself. In all of these I'm posing in some way, so naturally I look worse than these irl. But you'll get a general idea of what I look like, I think.
All right. This is me in Germany, taken a few months ago. Unfortunately my hair is not that fantastic dark red colour anymore, since I don't really have the time, patience, or confidence in my looks in general to maintain it. Maybe when I'm out of uni I'll get more into it.
One of my personal all-time favourites. As you can see, my hair was AMAZING. My hair is naturally quite curly, and at the moment it's cut in such a way that is supposed to enhance my curls but currently just looks like a wildebeast because I can't be arsed putting mousse and shit through it. But at this stage of my life, which was about 3 years ago, I was arsed to straighten it and to put make-up on. It does make a difference, I have to say.
Bugger me it was cold that day. That's me looking a bit more natural. Again, my hair isn't that colour at the moment.
That's what colour my hair is atm. It's not bad, but I prefer the red, or better still the red and blonde stripes. Anyway, you can see that pulling my hair back does my appearance no favours, which is a shame because it would be so much easier for me to wear my hair pulled back every day and not be worried at how dramatically it hinders my appearance. My skin is, as you can see, so pale it's almost translucent, which I personally don't mind but the red cheeks have always been a source of annoyance for me. You can't see it in any of the shots, but the rest of my skin is marked with keratosis and scars from mozzie bites and acne, and more stretch marks than I think even the average fat person tends to have. The sensible part of me knows that a daily application of moisturiser with a hint of tanning lotion would hide all of those bits and bobs, but the stubborn part of me wants to believe that I can look beautifully pale and that tanning means I'm conforming to general society's belief that tanned skin looks better. I'll swallow my pride eventually.
So as you can see I'm fat, female and fair. I'm not 40 yet though, so I don't have to panic about my gall bladder just yet. :P