someone handle me warm again, all i want is not to need you now.
so today is Halloween. How exciting, well i was...
I dont know what happen but before i knew it jon and I were fighting. It started off by him telling me i was drama, and thats all i am.. oh and that i cant help it. I at first didnt say anything.. i didnt even wanna get into it. So he was laying down on the couch and i rubbed his back and told him i loved him and said in a nice tone how it kinda hurt my feelings when he said that. What does he do?? rolls his eyes, and said " im sorry, but you are" It seems like thats the only thing he does when i tell him things like this. It just got worse after that... before you know it hes telling me shut the fuck up. That hurt the most more then him pushing me away.. when really he was in the wrong and there was me.. saying sorry for GOD KNOWS WHAT// just because i want things to be okay with us...
its just hard to believe the way he makes me feel sometimes. Ive been told even by his good friend that he does say some fucked up things to me... and he wonders why i dont say anything, and its because of that SAME REASON.. we will end up fighting like this.. Jon never used to be like this. He used to love me more then fucking anything in the world, treat me with respect... now its so much different. He says hurtfull things.. and he wont even say sorry for it... when really thats all i want.
so im taken it im spending this halloween alone. with out my so called boyfriend...
he will be out getting drunk and probably having the best time of his life.. while i feel like shit.
thats just how it goes with me.
I dont know what happen but before i knew it jon and I were fighting. It started off by him telling me i was drama, and thats all i am.. oh and that i cant help it. I at first didnt say anything.. i didnt even wanna get into it. So he was laying down on the couch and i rubbed his back and told him i loved him and said in a nice tone how it kinda hurt my feelings when he said that. What does he do?? rolls his eyes, and said " im sorry, but you are" It seems like thats the only thing he does when i tell him things like this. It just got worse after that... before you know it hes telling me shut the fuck up. That hurt the most more then him pushing me away.. when really he was in the wrong and there was me.. saying sorry for GOD KNOWS WHAT// just because i want things to be okay with us...
its just hard to believe the way he makes me feel sometimes. Ive been told even by his good friend that he does say some fucked up things to me... and he wonders why i dont say anything, and its because of that SAME REASON.. we will end up fighting like this.. Jon never used to be like this. He used to love me more then fucking anything in the world, treat me with respect... now its so much different. He says hurtfull things.. and he wont even say sorry for it... when really thats all i want.
so im taken it im spending this halloween alone. with out my so called boyfriend...
he will be out getting drunk and probably having the best time of his life.. while i feel like shit.
thats just how it goes with me.