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just when i thought it couldnt get worse...
so reciently i discovered that im with child. thats right, pregnant. at first i couldnt catch my breath. how could this happen? why me? it didnt take long for that to wear off. shortly after, i quit one of my jobs, went to the doctor, and told my mother. i thought telling her would be the end of the world. it wasnt. she cried which broke my heart, but then she told me it would be okay. she told the family and now everyone knows. after the anitial shock wore off, people were actually excited. my aunts bought me a bassinette and a whole bunch of clothes. everyones being supportive. brett hasnt told his family yet. he's waiting until he has enough money to move out. i wish he would just tell them but its his family so its up to him. we're going to get married after i we finish school. i can apply for a grant and go to college for free. (looking on the bright side.) brett and i are going to move out into a little appartment with the baby. hopefully ill be able to finish highschool by january with the help of starkweather night classes. the baby is due feb. 22. so that will give me 6 months before college.i cant explain how i feel right now. physically my uterus has doubled in size, my boobs hurt, and i have to pee every time i turn around. in exactly 3 weeks i can find out the sex. its mark if its a boy, after bretts dad. as for a girl? theres so many options. i like molly.
nothing scares me more than going back to school. its hard for me to admit that because i usually dont care what people think about me. i guess its because its not about me anymore. i know that i dont have the friends i used to have. thats the hardest part because i could use a good friend about now. well anyway, wish me luck.
so reciently i discovered that im with child. thats right, pregnant. at first i couldnt catch my breath. how could this happen? why me? it didnt take long for that to wear off. shortly after, i quit one of my jobs, went to the doctor, and told my mother. i thought telling her would be the end of the world. it wasnt. she cried which broke my heart, but then she told me it would be okay. she told the family and now everyone knows. after the anitial shock wore off, people were actually excited. my aunts bought me a bassinette and a whole bunch of clothes. everyones being supportive. brett hasnt told his family yet. he's waiting until he has enough money to move out. i wish he would just tell them but its his family so its up to him. we're going to get married after i we finish school. i can apply for a grant and go to college for free. (looking on the bright side.) brett and i are going to move out into a little appartment with the baby. hopefully ill be able to finish highschool by january with the help of starkweather night classes. the baby is due feb. 22. so that will give me 6 months before college.i cant explain how i feel right now. physically my uterus has doubled in size, my boobs hurt, and i have to pee every time i turn around. in exactly 3 weeks i can find out the sex. its mark if its a boy, after bretts dad. as for a girl? theres so many options. i like molly.
nothing scares me more than going back to school. its hard for me to admit that because i usually dont care what people think about me. i guess its because its not about me anymore. i know that i dont have the friends i used to have. thats the hardest part because i could use a good friend about now. well anyway, wish me luck.