Super Long Post...bored in Physics
So I'm sitting here in this physical science class waiting for Jamie to show up. I brought my laptop today because I knew that I wanted to write some stuff down. I know I know, all of you wanted to know that little piece of information.
I applied for a job at the LA Fitness in Waterford. I really really hope I get it. I can't work at the UCF gym anymore. After I sent Kim the 2nd e-mail saying no no, I really don't want to take that test, she e-mailed me back and was like in the future you really need to pay attention to the dates of things you are signed up for. We have several people taking that test that could have been given a free spot that we wasted on you. WTF! What a fucing bitch. She couldn't just e-mail me back and be like ok I understand that you have real school work to do, sorry to hear that. No. She had to be a bitch. Now I have to deal with ANOTHER one of the "facility" staff that doesn't like me and if going to give me awkward looks anytime I see her. Great, I can't wait.
My dreams have really been bothering me lately. Last night I had a dream that I was dating someone (not matt, and I don't want to say who it was because it is so random...and no one knows who he is lol). Anyways it was weird because it was something different. Different feelings, different thoughts, different everything. We were at the high school in Fernandina, by the gym actually, and a bunch of people that I knew from the gym were there and we were hanging out, then people started getting mean and attacking me. He took me into his arms, picked me up (hehe it was fun lol), and carried me away. It wasn't like a prince charming, it was like a warm, loving feeling. Like he saved me from the prosecution of the world. I don't even remember where we drove or where we went after we left the high school, I think we just drove somewhere. BUT, I am with Matt. I like dreams like this because they are fun and interesting and something spicey? But then on the other side I just don't understand them. Usually, my dreams are things that I desire or things that I am stressed about and various things like that, but I'm not stressed about my relationship. I am nervous about the summer/next semester. I want to stay in the apartment I am in but without Jimmy and Megan there. I want to be able to have my own room. I want to be able to have a place to escape from everything in the world. I love Matt with all my heart, and just because I need a place to call my own, doesn't mean that I love him any less or that I am trying to push him away, I just need someplace to go to cry, think, be alone, do homework, watch tv, smoke, anything that I want to do alone cannot be done because I do not have a place in that apartment. I think that if Jimmy and Megan move out then I will move stuff into the other room and tell my parents that Matt moved into the other bedroom, since his lease was up. This will work for what I have been telling them thus far.
I really need to step it up with my classes. I am not really falling behind, but I am not gaining anything. I need to work on my english paper, read philosophy, work on some physics, and maybe read a little bit for stats. Mainly, I need to go to class. That is all I need to do. I've been doing really bad at that lately. I just need to motivate myself to get up and do it. So that will be worked on soon.
This is a room mate vent so shield your eyes if you don't want to read it. I don't know where to begin. We all know that they take showers when I want to take a shower, or they are washing their dog, but that is not the basis of my current complaint. I am sick of how disgusting our apartment is getting and they do nothing about it. They have not taken out the trash once. They will use dishes and leave them in the sink for weeks. They are keeping their trash bags in their bedroom because they "might need to use the box later." What is that? We have been doing shit, taking care of their dog, cleaning the kitchen and everywhere else in the apartment....and for what? What do we get in return? Them complaining about us having a cable cord and watching tv in our room?? (Which I never understood that at all...why did we need to go get them a cable cord? load of crap basically) I know that Matt and I are not the cleanest people, but WTF! What does Megan do all day? Nothing. She sleeps, maybe goes to class, maybe takes the dog out. She doesn't clean out the dogs food bowl. She doesn't clean out the water bowl. She doesn't clean all the crap that is on the floor AROUND that fucking bowl. I am sick of having to wear shoes in my own apartment because the floor is so gross. Matt has cleaned the floor several times, and they sit there and watch....
I'm super excited about Alyssa!!! I can't wait to see what all is going to happen with all of this but hopefully it will be good! I need to buy a new pipe soon, like this weekend most likely.
By the way, Jamie never showed up for physics....soooo i'm gonna leave now. Work tonight from 4-8, work tomorrow morning too so i'm not doing much tonight.
I applied for a job at the LA Fitness in Waterford. I really really hope I get it. I can't work at the UCF gym anymore. After I sent Kim the 2nd e-mail saying no no, I really don't want to take that test, she e-mailed me back and was like in the future you really need to pay attention to the dates of things you are signed up for. We have several people taking that test that could have been given a free spot that we wasted on you. WTF! What a fucing bitch. She couldn't just e-mail me back and be like ok I understand that you have real school work to do, sorry to hear that. No. She had to be a bitch. Now I have to deal with ANOTHER one of the "facility" staff that doesn't like me and if going to give me awkward looks anytime I see her. Great, I can't wait.
My dreams have really been bothering me lately. Last night I had a dream that I was dating someone (not matt, and I don't want to say who it was because it is so random...and no one knows who he is lol). Anyways it was weird because it was something different. Different feelings, different thoughts, different everything. We were at the high school in Fernandina, by the gym actually, and a bunch of people that I knew from the gym were there and we were hanging out, then people started getting mean and attacking me. He took me into his arms, picked me up (hehe it was fun lol), and carried me away. It wasn't like a prince charming, it was like a warm, loving feeling. Like he saved me from the prosecution of the world. I don't even remember where we drove or where we went after we left the high school, I think we just drove somewhere. BUT, I am with Matt. I like dreams like this because they are fun and interesting and something spicey? But then on the other side I just don't understand them. Usually, my dreams are things that I desire or things that I am stressed about and various things like that, but I'm not stressed about my relationship. I am nervous about the summer/next semester. I want to stay in the apartment I am in but without Jimmy and Megan there. I want to be able to have my own room. I want to be able to have a place to escape from everything in the world. I love Matt with all my heart, and just because I need a place to call my own, doesn't mean that I love him any less or that I am trying to push him away, I just need someplace to go to cry, think, be alone, do homework, watch tv, smoke, anything that I want to do alone cannot be done because I do not have a place in that apartment. I think that if Jimmy and Megan move out then I will move stuff into the other room and tell my parents that Matt moved into the other bedroom, since his lease was up. This will work for what I have been telling them thus far.
I really need to step it up with my classes. I am not really falling behind, but I am not gaining anything. I need to work on my english paper, read philosophy, work on some physics, and maybe read a little bit for stats. Mainly, I need to go to class. That is all I need to do. I've been doing really bad at that lately. I just need to motivate myself to get up and do it. So that will be worked on soon.
This is a room mate vent so shield your eyes if you don't want to read it. I don't know where to begin. We all know that they take showers when I want to take a shower, or they are washing their dog, but that is not the basis of my current complaint. I am sick of how disgusting our apartment is getting and they do nothing about it. They have not taken out the trash once. They will use dishes and leave them in the sink for weeks. They are keeping their trash bags in their bedroom because they "might need to use the box later." What is that? We have been doing shit, taking care of their dog, cleaning the kitchen and everywhere else in the apartment....and for what? What do we get in return? Them complaining about us having a cable cord and watching tv in our room?? (Which I never understood that at all...why did we need to go get them a cable cord? load of crap basically) I know that Matt and I are not the cleanest people, but WTF! What does Megan do all day? Nothing. She sleeps, maybe goes to class, maybe takes the dog out. She doesn't clean out the dogs food bowl. She doesn't clean out the water bowl. She doesn't clean all the crap that is on the floor AROUND that fucking bowl. I am sick of having to wear shoes in my own apartment because the floor is so gross. Matt has cleaned the floor several times, and they sit there and watch....
I'm super excited about Alyssa!!! I can't wait to see what all is going to happen with all of this but hopefully it will be good! I need to buy a new pipe soon, like this weekend most likely.
By the way, Jamie never showed up for physics....soooo i'm gonna leave now. Work tonight from 4-8, work tomorrow morning too so i'm not doing much tonight.