Nov 27, 2007 19:28
I was actually happy.
I was actually looking forward to coming online and joking around with someone that I thought was my friend.
Everything was fine.
I can't believe I was actually stupid enough to think that I could make a friend out of you, that we could possibly be best friends and just forget about the past.
I stepped up, and I spoke to you about everything in a mature way.
I treated you well, I tried to sort things out and see how you were feeling about everything.
I can understand where you were coming from.
It hurt again though, it just hurt because all I wanted was a friendship again.
It's actually stupid that it hurts because it took you 3 days to push me out of your life again, even though all we were doing was having fun and just enjoying each other again.
I completely understand where you're coming from.
But I don't know how it's fair, I don't understand why I had to stop talking to you for 2 months, and now after 3 days of actually smiling because we had a friendship, I had to give it up.
I guess it's what it takes to make you happy, so I'm going to do it.
You were someone I trusted though, someone I WANTED to actually speak to about my problems.
I just wanted you to know, that even though it was 3 days, the friendship made me feel great again.
Suck it up, pussy.