Summer Ennui
The days stretch into weeks...
It is pretty brutally hot down here in Southern California. Oh, it's not that bad temperature-wise, I guess; it's pretty average for this time of year. It's just incredibly muggy, more than I am used to, and it makes me miserable being outside during the day, unless there's a nice breeze to cool off a little with (like today, kinda).
My moods have been wildly inconsistent over the past week or two. I have recurring bouts of morning depression that come and go, which usually result in me freaking out and thinking to myself that I can't do this, that I am being silly, and that I should just go back to the way things were. I usually feel better in a couple hours, but this does happen from time to time. It's been so ridiculously miserable outside, that I haven't been as active, and I believe my moods have suffered because of that. It's made me a little antisocial, and I've had to force myself to even call people and hang out. It's just been work, work, work, and no school this summer means that I have even less of a structured daily schedule. I'm kind of shleping around this summer, but at least I'm saving some money.
Oddly enough, I've lost five pounds in the last month without any serious exercise, which is interesting. I've also grown out my arm hair over the last couple weeks just to see what would happen, and it's nowhere as thick as it used to be. Interestingly, a lot of the hairs themselves are thinner, lighter, and far less "abrasive" that I remember them being. I don't notice much in the way of body shape changing, but I'm sure it's happening slowly. I mean, hell, I'm only [nearly] a month and a half in. I can't expect a miracle yet.
Anyway, off to showering, work, work, and more work,
Tea
It is pretty brutally hot down here in Southern California. Oh, it's not that bad temperature-wise, I guess; it's pretty average for this time of year. It's just incredibly muggy, more than I am used to, and it makes me miserable being outside during the day, unless there's a nice breeze to cool off a little with (like today, kinda).
My moods have been wildly inconsistent over the past week or two. I have recurring bouts of morning depression that come and go, which usually result in me freaking out and thinking to myself that I can't do this, that I am being silly, and that I should just go back to the way things were. I usually feel better in a couple hours, but this does happen from time to time. It's been so ridiculously miserable outside, that I haven't been as active, and I believe my moods have suffered because of that. It's made me a little antisocial, and I've had to force myself to even call people and hang out. It's just been work, work, work, and no school this summer means that I have even less of a structured daily schedule. I'm kind of shleping around this summer, but at least I'm saving some money.
Oddly enough, I've lost five pounds in the last month without any serious exercise, which is interesting. I've also grown out my arm hair over the last couple weeks just to see what would happen, and it's nowhere as thick as it used to be. Interestingly, a lot of the hairs themselves are thinner, lighter, and far less "abrasive" that I remember them being. I don't notice much in the way of body shape changing, but I'm sure it's happening slowly. I mean, hell, I'm only [nearly] a month and a half in. I can't expect a miracle yet.
Anyway, off to showering, work, work, and more work,
Tea