happy bday to me
Today..well, actually yesterday was my 20th bday. My parents, my sis, her boyfriend, and me went to my bro's restaraunt at the Marriot for dinner. Beforehand, my mom and I managed to get into a fight (surprise surprise). I let her have it...I told her how I am sick of her berating me and tearing down my self confidence. I think she finally realized how her negative comments have actually affected me. Thankfully, she apologized for being a bitch and we were able to get through the night.
I'm worried about my dad. His drinking has gotten to a level which is definitely not good for his health. I think everything that has occurred these past few months has taken a toll on him for the worse. After his brush with death and the death of his brother...he's just not the same person. I need to try and persuade him to stop drinking so much, but that is an impossible feat...he'll never stop. I'm scared for his health. I feel completely helpless in this situation. I never thought my dad could actually be an alcoholic, but his drinking is way out of control. It hit me like a ton of bricks at my birthday dinner when he was so drunk he could barely walk out of the restaruant. I wanted to yell at him or cry, or something.
So, yeah...my birthday was rather bittersweet. At least my whole family was there and we were hospitable throughout dinner. My parents bought me a desk for my apartment and gave me some money. That was nice, since I don't have a job anymore. I don't have school tommorrow! Yay, that's a plus. I'm going to bed.
I'm worried about my dad. His drinking has gotten to a level which is definitely not good for his health. I think everything that has occurred these past few months has taken a toll on him for the worse. After his brush with death and the death of his brother...he's just not the same person. I need to try and persuade him to stop drinking so much, but that is an impossible feat...he'll never stop. I'm scared for his health. I feel completely helpless in this situation. I never thought my dad could actually be an alcoholic, but his drinking is way out of control. It hit me like a ton of bricks at my birthday dinner when he was so drunk he could barely walk out of the restaruant. I wanted to yell at him or cry, or something.
So, yeah...my birthday was rather bittersweet. At least my whole family was there and we were hospitable throughout dinner. My parents bought me a desk for my apartment and gave me some money. That was nice, since I don't have a job anymore. I don't have school tommorrow! Yay, that's a plus. I'm going to bed.