random, dont bother reading.
isolation --- a BIG issue i've delt with throughout middle and high school. sometimes i do it to myself, sometimes it's done to me, and sometimes, i hate to admit, i do it to others.
this past week has pretty much sucked ass. >_< my new schedule is crazy and boring and BLECCH. with the new blah scedule and having restricted lunch all week, i've been pretty :( [back to my isolation point] last night after cheering i hung out with two of the girls :) it was fuunn and hilarious... but the whole time i felt very out of place. they both had their inside jokes and normal best friend stuff. and i just couldn't help but think that maybe if i hadn't be soo screwed up that last few years that maybe i wouldn't have left mondon and given up the chance to really get to know these amazing kids. but i guess that i got alot of other stuff outta leaving mondon and experiencing soo much. i just kinda wish i had more time to really idnoo.. get to know everybody. i wanna hang out with them, but i feel like i'll always be the most forgotten one. idont make myself well known because the way the kids have a way of doing that in our little group of friends is by starting with eachother. i'm not too into that. and it also doesnt help that i can get extremely shy and loose my personality in situations i dont feel too comfortable in.
dkjfsl;jskdfjs f i dno what i'm saying. none of this makes sense. bye -_-
this past week has pretty much sucked ass. >_< my new schedule is crazy and boring and BLECCH. with the new blah scedule and having restricted lunch all week, i've been pretty :( [back to my isolation point] last night after cheering i hung out with two of the girls :) it was fuunn and hilarious... but the whole time i felt very out of place. they both had their inside jokes and normal best friend stuff. and i just couldn't help but think that maybe if i hadn't be soo screwed up that last few years that maybe i wouldn't have left mondon and given up the chance to really get to know these amazing kids. but i guess that i got alot of other stuff outta leaving mondon and experiencing soo much. i just kinda wish i had more time to really idnoo.. get to know everybody. i wanna hang out with them, but i feel like i'll always be the most forgotten one. idont make myself well known because the way the kids have a way of doing that in our little group of friends is by starting with eachother. i'm not too into that. and it also doesnt help that i can get extremely shy and loose my personality in situations i dont feel too comfortable in.
dkjfsl;jskdfjs f i dno what i'm saying. none of this makes sense. bye -_-