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okay, soo there's a couple people i gotta rant aboutt to get some things off my chest.
1. seems like we've been "okay" lately. it's just last sunday when we were supposed to hang out and you bailed, you became the biggest hipocrite in the world. the day before, we hung out and you told me how pissed you were that you're friends bailed on you and how it screwed up your whole day. well, you went and did the SAME thing to me. my mom asked me if i wanted to go up north that day to visit some family and my g-ma's grave, but i told her no because i was supposed to be hangin with you.. and then you bailed and i was stuck doing nothing all day.... thanks.
2. alright, first off, i want to tell you i loveee youu to death. seriously, i know i can really talk to you about everything and i hope you feel the same way. there's just ONE thing that's been bothering me for a little while.. when it comes to talking about a CERTAIN boy, i thought you would know that i'm very sensitive about it. i mean, that whole month when you guys considered a relationship KILLED me. seriously, i mean, you were/are one of my BEST friends ..and it was like you stole my boyfriend (at the time), which is one of the very first rules about bestfriends. and then, you keep bringing it up now.. like i specifically remember when we went out to dinner at applebees with some friends and you kept talking about him. i dno how exactly to explain how i was feeling, but .. idno.. just .. when it comes to THAT subject try not to talk about it soo much. even if i'm talking to you about it... just like ... i dno..
3. you're keeping my best friend happy and i seriously LOVE you for that. it's just .. it seemed like we had a pretty cool friendship before you guys started going out and now it's like i hardly ever talk to you. i'm not mad at you.. i'm just kinda bummed cause it feels like i've lost yet another friend... even if we do talk from time to time.. it's not the same. i miss that friendship we used to have. it was funn and you kept me happy, but i understand that you've got a girlfriend now and i kinda need to give you some space .. not that i didn't give you space before .. it's just i guess i gotta understand that DUH you're gonna be busier and might not have time for me. -_-
4. i have to admitt something to you. last tuesday i hung out with one of my older friends who reads terrot cards and she read mine. i vented and ranted to her about my life, so she could get a clear idea of what she needs to look for in the cards. i told her how you and i weren't on the greatest terms lately and how you kinda hated me for all the right reasons. and along with some other people in my life, she pulled our cards.. and everything was pointing to the both of us getting together after we solved our issues and to tell you the truth, i could totally see it. all she kept telling me is that you are it. and then that's all i kept thinking .. like maybe you could be the one to push me over this hill that i'm on with my ex.. i really believed it.. and it gave me hope, but then today when you told me that you have a girl, i felt completely turned down.. and like ... lost, i guess. i dno .. i'm glad you found someone though... and not just anyone, someone you KNOW you can trust and stuff. that's really cool. i guess, i'm back to lookin around for someone new now.... by the way, i'm really glad we're talking again. i hope it sticks, ya know. you're a reeeal cool kidd and definitely an amazing friend. :)
5. okay, now you. we haven't spoken for a week & a day; yes, i'm counting the days, shush =P. this last week has been sooo extremely hard for me, but for soo many other reasons than just that i miss you. i've felt like i've lost alot of friends lately and you were always the one i could turn to. i don't have anyone like that anymore and to be blunt... it sucks ass. i miss you're friendship, but it seems like you don't really need or care about me being in your life anymore. when i got my cards read last tuesday, there really was nothing good in it for us, so i knoww that staying away was the right idea. it's just been soo hard and i'm soo used to taking the easy way; although, maybe this is the easy way? who knows... anyways. i just want you to know that the way that i've been thinking about "us" is that i'm pretty much leaving it up to fate. if it's meant to be, we'll meet again somewhere down the road in our lives. i've read some awaymessages of yours and have noticed that things are going reeally good for you and your girlfriend and i'm glad. it seems like me leaving your life was the best idea for both of us. you've been seeming to be reeally happy lately and i really hope that sticks for a loong time.
1. seems like we've been "okay" lately. it's just last sunday when we were supposed to hang out and you bailed, you became the biggest hipocrite in the world. the day before, we hung out and you told me how pissed you were that you're friends bailed on you and how it screwed up your whole day. well, you went and did the SAME thing to me. my mom asked me if i wanted to go up north that day to visit some family and my g-ma's grave, but i told her no because i was supposed to be hangin with you.. and then you bailed and i was stuck doing nothing all day.... thanks.
2. alright, first off, i want to tell you i loveee youu to death. seriously, i know i can really talk to you about everything and i hope you feel the same way. there's just ONE thing that's been bothering me for a little while.. when it comes to talking about a CERTAIN boy, i thought you would know that i'm very sensitive about it. i mean, that whole month when you guys considered a relationship KILLED me. seriously, i mean, you were/are one of my BEST friends ..and it was like you stole my boyfriend (at the time), which is one of the very first rules about bestfriends. and then, you keep bringing it up now.. like i specifically remember when we went out to dinner at applebees with some friends and you kept talking about him. i dno how exactly to explain how i was feeling, but .. idno.. just .. when it comes to THAT subject try not to talk about it soo much. even if i'm talking to you about it... just like ... i dno..
3. you're keeping my best friend happy and i seriously LOVE you for that. it's just .. it seemed like we had a pretty cool friendship before you guys started going out and now it's like i hardly ever talk to you. i'm not mad at you.. i'm just kinda bummed cause it feels like i've lost yet another friend... even if we do talk from time to time.. it's not the same. i miss that friendship we used to have. it was funn and you kept me happy, but i understand that you've got a girlfriend now and i kinda need to give you some space .. not that i didn't give you space before .. it's just i guess i gotta understand that DUH you're gonna be busier and might not have time for me. -_-
4. i have to admitt something to you. last tuesday i hung out with one of my older friends who reads terrot cards and she read mine. i vented and ranted to her about my life, so she could get a clear idea of what she needs to look for in the cards. i told her how you and i weren't on the greatest terms lately and how you kinda hated me for all the right reasons. and along with some other people in my life, she pulled our cards.. and everything was pointing to the both of us getting together after we solved our issues and to tell you the truth, i could totally see it. all she kept telling me is that you are it. and then that's all i kept thinking .. like maybe you could be the one to push me over this hill that i'm on with my ex.. i really believed it.. and it gave me hope, but then today when you told me that you have a girl, i felt completely turned down.. and like ... lost, i guess. i dno .. i'm glad you found someone though... and not just anyone, someone you KNOW you can trust and stuff. that's really cool. i guess, i'm back to lookin around for someone new now.... by the way, i'm really glad we're talking again. i hope it sticks, ya know. you're a reeeal cool kidd and definitely an amazing friend. :)
5. okay, now you. we haven't spoken for a week & a day; yes, i'm counting the days, shush =P. this last week has been sooo extremely hard for me, but for soo many other reasons than just that i miss you. i've felt like i've lost alot of friends lately and you were always the one i could turn to. i don't have anyone like that anymore and to be blunt... it sucks ass. i miss you're friendship, but it seems like you don't really need or care about me being in your life anymore. when i got my cards read last tuesday, there really was nothing good in it for us, so i knoww that staying away was the right idea. it's just been soo hard and i'm soo used to taking the easy way; although, maybe this is the easy way? who knows... anyways. i just want you to know that the way that i've been thinking about "us" is that i'm pretty much leaving it up to fate. if it's meant to be, we'll meet again somewhere down the road in our lives. i've read some awaymessages of yours and have noticed that things are going reeally good for you and your girlfriend and i'm glad. it seems like me leaving your life was the best idea for both of us. you've been seeming to be reeally happy lately and i really hope that sticks for a loong time.