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*i think im guna see max tomarrow. eeh i dont know wether to be totally thrilled or kinda worried. i want to see him soo badly, but to me it seems a little bit counter productive, kinda what i was saying i shouldnt do for a while. . idk i really miss him and i know he misses me to. . . im just worried that i will break down when im with him and then he'll have to leave and we will both be wreaks for the rest of the night and probably well into the next day if i know me or him at all, and i think i do. on another note i had a remarkably good day for being depressed.
heres my today
1. woke up at 12:30 to a vaccume (that kinda sucked but hey beats an alarm clock at 5:50am)
2. put a basket of cloths away cause my mommy washed them for me this time around. . .
3. went downstairs and my daddy made me soup. . . ramen actually . . .it was yummy
4. went to michaels craft supply store and got some water color paper for my drawing project and some odds and ends for my altered book project
5. came home and painted for most of the day. . .
6. designed and started on the 2 cover pages for my book
7. took a nap( bout 30mins) after reading some in my book . . candy good book though its about drugs
8. called max and talked for a little while. . .
9. got ready for dinner company to come over
10. watched harry potter and the sorcerers stone with the kids
11. got on computer and looked up stuff for possible spring break trip to jamaica. . . omg so excited
12. now im sitting here texting with max about seeing him tomarrow
-all and all ied say i had a good day i did things that dont really bug me much and had a day full of art and being well happy i guess. . .though i still have to take my shower and do some more reading,and the whole nighty call to max , other wise there is no chance of me sleeping at night at all. . . kinda sad but hey he helps me calm down and mellow out b4 i go to bed , something about his voice is really comforting. . .well enough of me and my day . . i hope everyone is doing ok and jeramy please stay out of trouble and lourn thanks for being you . . . jess thanks for being concerned though sometimes i dont think its nessacary its still nice to know someone cares. well i think im guna go take that shower i was talking about earlier and go do some reading and then give max a call. . . hope everyone is happy and well and has a good nights sleep. .. . mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah much love to all
-Madison
p.s. max thanks for being there,and i know you'd like to be there even more than im allowing you to be right now, but maybe ill get better faster than i thought. . idk to soon to tell but i miss you and i love you though imnot with you right now. . . mwah sleep good or as good as you can anyway
heres my today
1. woke up at 12:30 to a vaccume (that kinda sucked but hey beats an alarm clock at 5:50am)
2. put a basket of cloths away cause my mommy washed them for me this time around. . .
3. went downstairs and my daddy made me soup. . . ramen actually . . .it was yummy
4. went to michaels craft supply store and got some water color paper for my drawing project and some odds and ends for my altered book project
5. came home and painted for most of the day. . .
6. designed and started on the 2 cover pages for my book
7. took a nap( bout 30mins) after reading some in my book . . candy good book though its about drugs
8. called max and talked for a little while. . .
9. got ready for dinner company to come over
10. watched harry potter and the sorcerers stone with the kids
11. got on computer and looked up stuff for possible spring break trip to jamaica. . . omg so excited
12. now im sitting here texting with max about seeing him tomarrow
-all and all ied say i had a good day i did things that dont really bug me much and had a day full of art and being well happy i guess. . .though i still have to take my shower and do some more reading,and the whole nighty call to max , other wise there is no chance of me sleeping at night at all. . . kinda sad but hey he helps me calm down and mellow out b4 i go to bed , something about his voice is really comforting. . .well enough of me and my day . . i hope everyone is doing ok and jeramy please stay out of trouble and lourn thanks for being you . . . jess thanks for being concerned though sometimes i dont think its nessacary its still nice to know someone cares. well i think im guna go take that shower i was talking about earlier and go do some reading and then give max a call. . . hope everyone is happy and well and has a good nights sleep. .. . mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah much love to all
-Madison
p.s. max thanks for being there,and i know you'd like to be there even more than im allowing you to be right now, but maybe ill get better faster than i thought. . idk to soon to tell but i miss you and i love you though imnot with you right now. . . mwah sleep good or as good as you can anyway