i'LL take this moment to clarify.........
ok lets get one thing straight.... i'm home for a reason. i'm not some bum thats too lazy to go to school or dropped from this semester because i didnt think i could cut it.. and yes, all this happened a few months ago.. maybe to you thats a long time ago.. maybe to you that sounds like that time has come and passed and i shouldnt be hanging on to that moment or that excuse anymore.. maybe to you thats too much free time to know what to do with.. well guess what? you and I are different people.. i don't intend to hold onto that part of the past forever, as an excuse at least. i've just never had a break like this.. i've never deserved a break like this.. i'm not ready to give it up for ANYTHING.. i may be doing "nothing" all day, but i've never had more fun in my life.. a kind of fun that i've never achieved doing anything else but "nothing".. this break has helped me see things from every angle, angles that i've fallen in love with.. angles that if i move, i may never find again.. angles that i'm not ready to forget.. i'm not going to say that i'll be ready to forget in two weeks or in a month or come fall, for that matter.. but when i do decide to forget, or go back to my old angles.. it will be right on time.. who knows, i'll probably be ready for school in august. i might even be ready tomorrow. but all i know is that RIGHT NOW, i'm happy doing what i'm doing and i'm not ready to change that.
My days go by really slow, and i LOVE it. how many of you can honestly say that your life is or was ever going by at the speed you wanted it to?
i know that "real" life isn't at all like the way i'm living it right now.. society doesn't accept, encourage, allow this kind of life to be successful, and that's a damn shame.. if people lived this slow they might actually realize what's around them and have the time and state of mind required to fully appreciate it.. doing things and going places nonstop gets so boring and so routine after a while that you don't even realize you're doing those things or going to those places. Maybe i'll start my own country. A country that accepts, encourages, and allows you to go at your own speed. A country that allows you to go a tortoise's pace throughout your whole life, not just after you retire. A country that allows you to SLOW DOWN AND BREATHE IT IN. you guys know i'm not a boring person. This is not me pretending to be a 95 year old.. this is just me breathing it in. I used to drive like a maniac whether i knew where i was going or not.. now i barely break the limit, if i even do.. i'm not in a rush anymore. i wasn't in a rush before either.. but the difference is that i can recognize that now.. I'm not gonna stay in a constant rush, especially if i don't know where I'm rushing toward. Sometimes you just gotta get in the far right lane and enjoy the drive.
"Breakdown"
I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
They walk as fast as their feet can take them and
I just stroll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame im looking through
Seems to have no concern for me now
So for now I
I need this old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
This engine screams out loud
Sayin the beat gunna crawl westbound
So I dont even make a sound
Cause its gunna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
That i'll never get to meet
If these dont bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I dont need to be
So I
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
Let me break on down
But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in, you know
You dont know nothing
But you dont need to know
THE WISDOM'S IN THE TREES
NOT THE GLASS WINDOWS
You cant stop wishing
If you dont let go
Bout the things that you find
And you lose, and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
_Jack Johnson
1..2, B
ps: how many of you share/would even think of sharing your journal with your parents????
My days go by really slow, and i LOVE it. how many of you can honestly say that your life is or was ever going by at the speed you wanted it to?
i know that "real" life isn't at all like the way i'm living it right now.. society doesn't accept, encourage, allow this kind of life to be successful, and that's a damn shame.. if people lived this slow they might actually realize what's around them and have the time and state of mind required to fully appreciate it.. doing things and going places nonstop gets so boring and so routine after a while that you don't even realize you're doing those things or going to those places. Maybe i'll start my own country. A country that accepts, encourages, and allows you to go at your own speed. A country that allows you to go a tortoise's pace throughout your whole life, not just after you retire. A country that allows you to SLOW DOWN AND BREATHE IT IN. you guys know i'm not a boring person. This is not me pretending to be a 95 year old.. this is just me breathing it in. I used to drive like a maniac whether i knew where i was going or not.. now i barely break the limit, if i even do.. i'm not in a rush anymore. i wasn't in a rush before either.. but the difference is that i can recognize that now.. I'm not gonna stay in a constant rush, especially if i don't know where I'm rushing toward. Sometimes you just gotta get in the far right lane and enjoy the drive.
"Breakdown"
I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
They walk as fast as their feet can take them and
I just stroll through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame im looking through
Seems to have no concern for me now
So for now I
I need this old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
This engine screams out loud
Sayin the beat gunna crawl westbound
So I dont even make a sound
Cause its gunna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
That i'll never get to meet
If these dont bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I dont need to be
So I
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
Let me break on down
But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in, you know
You dont know nothing
But you dont need to know
THE WISDOM'S IN THE TREES
NOT THE GLASS WINDOWS
You cant stop wishing
If you dont let go
Bout the things that you find
And you lose, and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
_Jack Johnson
1..2, B
ps: how many of you share/would even think of sharing your journal with your parents????