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Okay well I thought I better update since it has been awhile. So much has been going on latley that I havent really had a chance to.
Well I took my older daughter to the Phx. airport yesterday. That in itself was a chore. I had to take my little one too, so we all left around 12:30 and I stopped and got them lunch to eat on the way up. I had previously made plans with a dear friend to have lunch once we got up there, but didnt expect my children to wait for a few more hours to eat. Anyway the trip up there was okay. I stopped at Arizona Mill Mall so that my friend could meet up with us. We had to go into the mall so we could find a bathroom. I became a little irratated because it was l;ike disneyland in there. People running into one another and just a little to crowded for me. So needless to say we hurried. By the time we got back by the main door my friend was there. We walked out to our cars and decided to take his. I had no objections because I dont know Phx. to well. SO we all went to lunch and caught up with eachother and our lives. By the time we were done with lunch it was getting close to 5, so I was ready to get to the airport.He offered to take us instead of me wasting gas. So I didnt really think and said sure. We got there and the airport was packed. The line to stand in was longer than I have ever seen it, good thing though was it was moving pretty fast. Not fast enough for me though, as my 2 year old wasnt listening to me and was well just being a 2 year old. Finally we get to the counter and I found out that I had paperwork to fill out. My ex had called British Airways and asked them to please send the paperwork prior and they said there was no need because all the info was correct. So I had to fill it out again. Pain in my butt. I was emotional to begin with because I was having to send my daughter off for two and a half months; but became tearful when the lady behind the counter informed me that my little one was going to have to stay behind with my friend. I told her that I didnt think so. I mean my daughter barley knows this man. We have been friends(and only friends for awhile) but my daughters do not know him enough to be left with him for two hours. I do trust him but I knew my little one would scream. So I just told the lady "Im sorry but I am taking her with me." My friend felt bad.......he thought he caused alot trouble and I assured him it was fine. Well then we went to the gate and to turn a long story a little shorter she gave us hugs and kisses and we told her we loved her etc. and then they took her on board. We had to wait until the plane was actually in the air to leave, so Noelle and I just waited patiently until approx. 7:45 . I felt like crying but didnt for my little one. I guess Hope was scared because one of the attendants came to tell the solo flyers parents that all the kids were okay except that Hope was a little scared. I hated that because I wasnt able to comfort her. I recieved a call though from her and she made it saftley and I will talk to her Sunday.
You know it never gets any easier. At least for me. This is my baby. You know sometimes my daughter irratate me or upset me, but I would never trade them for the world and having to be without one of them for a few months well its hard. My house feels quieter.
Noelle jumped in my bed this morning and said"Yea we get to pick up Hope today" I told her no baby, she's still on the plane.
Well other than that my weekend went okay.I was hit on by someone at the car wash on Sat Morning. I looked horrible and had no make up on and was sweating a little. I felt like laughing but instead was polite and not interested. I took the girls to the drive end on Sat. and we saw The Longest Yard and Monster N Law. The girls fell asleep during the first movie. I thought both movies were pretty good.
I think that is all I did . My life has been caotic and well just crazy latley, so I am trying my best to keep updated on everything, but I am really slacking. I had to apologize to my friend(the one in Phx.) because I felt like I really wasnt being a friend latley. I lost contact with him for a few months and well I am sure he couldve used my shoulder. He is going through alot himself with his almost 18 year old son. He was sweet and said Traci dont worry about it. We will have to do a better job . I really hate talking on the phone though and I dont get much time to write so I guess I will have to make some changes. I really have felt kinda like just relaxing when I have a minute and I really havent felt like talking to anyone. I dont know what it is. I just felt kinda overloaded and think maybe I needed some time to myself.
Okay I better continue this another time because it is getting long. Take care everyone and I hope your days have all went good. It is sunny and warm here.
Well I took my older daughter to the Phx. airport yesterday. That in itself was a chore. I had to take my little one too, so we all left around 12:30 and I stopped and got them lunch to eat on the way up. I had previously made plans with a dear friend to have lunch once we got up there, but didnt expect my children to wait for a few more hours to eat. Anyway the trip up there was okay. I stopped at Arizona Mill Mall so that my friend could meet up with us. We had to go into the mall so we could find a bathroom. I became a little irratated because it was l;ike disneyland in there. People running into one another and just a little to crowded for me. So needless to say we hurried. By the time we got back by the main door my friend was there. We walked out to our cars and decided to take his. I had no objections because I dont know Phx. to well. SO we all went to lunch and caught up with eachother and our lives. By the time we were done with lunch it was getting close to 5, so I was ready to get to the airport.He offered to take us instead of me wasting gas. So I didnt really think and said sure. We got there and the airport was packed. The line to stand in was longer than I have ever seen it, good thing though was it was moving pretty fast. Not fast enough for me though, as my 2 year old wasnt listening to me and was well just being a 2 year old. Finally we get to the counter and I found out that I had paperwork to fill out. My ex had called British Airways and asked them to please send the paperwork prior and they said there was no need because all the info was correct. So I had to fill it out again. Pain in my butt. I was emotional to begin with because I was having to send my daughter off for two and a half months; but became tearful when the lady behind the counter informed me that my little one was going to have to stay behind with my friend. I told her that I didnt think so. I mean my daughter barley knows this man. We have been friends(and only friends for awhile) but my daughters do not know him enough to be left with him for two hours. I do trust him but I knew my little one would scream. So I just told the lady "Im sorry but I am taking her with me." My friend felt bad.......he thought he caused alot trouble and I assured him it was fine. Well then we went to the gate and to turn a long story a little shorter she gave us hugs and kisses and we told her we loved her etc. and then they took her on board. We had to wait until the plane was actually in the air to leave, so Noelle and I just waited patiently until approx. 7:45 . I felt like crying but didnt for my little one. I guess Hope was scared because one of the attendants came to tell the solo flyers parents that all the kids were okay except that Hope was a little scared. I hated that because I wasnt able to comfort her. I recieved a call though from her and she made it saftley and I will talk to her Sunday.
You know it never gets any easier. At least for me. This is my baby. You know sometimes my daughter irratate me or upset me, but I would never trade them for the world and having to be without one of them for a few months well its hard. My house feels quieter.
Noelle jumped in my bed this morning and said"Yea we get to pick up Hope today" I told her no baby, she's still on the plane.
Well other than that my weekend went okay.I was hit on by someone at the car wash on Sat Morning. I looked horrible and had no make up on and was sweating a little. I felt like laughing but instead was polite and not interested. I took the girls to the drive end on Sat. and we saw The Longest Yard and Monster N Law. The girls fell asleep during the first movie. I thought both movies were pretty good.
I think that is all I did . My life has been caotic and well just crazy latley, so I am trying my best to keep updated on everything, but I am really slacking. I had to apologize to my friend(the one in Phx.) because I felt like I really wasnt being a friend latley. I lost contact with him for a few months and well I am sure he couldve used my shoulder. He is going through alot himself with his almost 18 year old son. He was sweet and said Traci dont worry about it. We will have to do a better job . I really hate talking on the phone though and I dont get much time to write so I guess I will have to make some changes. I really have felt kinda like just relaxing when I have a minute and I really havent felt like talking to anyone. I dont know what it is. I just felt kinda overloaded and think maybe I needed some time to myself.
Okay I better continue this another time because it is getting long. Take care everyone and I hope your days have all went good. It is sunny and warm here.