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so, yea... its been like 3 weeks now since my last update.... been oing through a family crisis. Lo-and-behold, its my brother again starting up stupid shit. he got locked up again about 2 weeks ago. charged with drug possession (weed & 'e') as well as having somethin else on him that would cause the FBI to interview his stupid ass and having bail set to $10,000. Ofcourse, my mother being the saint that she is, pulls out a loan and pays it off plus pays another 7g's for this federal lawyer, i dunno if its like 7 total or 7 per court date, and there are lot of them since thats all i've been hearing about. Here's my brother, the biggest screwup in the world and my mother supporting him like he's everything in the world to her and i'm here trying to work double shifts at my jobs so i can pay my ½ of the bills (cable, cellphones; mine and hers, skool,+ groceries) and to try to have enough for gas to get to skool and if at all possible, go out to hang out with a friend when i do have some free time. But its ok, at least i know i don't need to rely on her. my brother just turned 24 and still needs both his parents... i turn 21 in less than 2 months, my father wont speak to me even if i'm outside his doorstep and my mother says i'm still 11 yrs old and i don't know how hard it is to be on my own... oddly enough, i feel that i am on my own. nobody is helping me and i'm been dooing everything on my own.
i got a job as a intern over at the liberty science center last week. the gave me the grand tour of the place this past saturday. i even got to watch movies for free in their IMEX theatre, now that was a big screen! I've never been there before and now i work there... its pretty kewl... lets see how long this lasts. i say that cause i was laid off from BestBuy that same week. I was hired as an optional seasonal employee and sonce its after season, the store doesn't have the revenue to keep all its employees. its ok... it frees up time for me to work at the center. i do wish i get paid there though. dang it
friends want to get to moving out earlier than expected.... they said they want to be ready to move by march/april... i was expecting it to happen this summer. financially, thats too early, may/june would be easier for me. i would have graqduated and have adequet time to save up from one job while lookin into another... maybe even put my degree into use too... it would be an Associates degree in applied sciencewith my major as networking management... which is sitll pretty useless by itself. you see with computers a degree looks nice on a wall, but having a cert. would prove to anyone i know what say i can do. i'm thinking in going for my A+ 1st... which is bassically saying i can open a computer and fix it inside out.(mostly hardware) as well as getting my CCNE (i think thats what it is.Cisco Certified Networking Engineer) to complete my CISCO training that i started when i was 16 in highshool.
Highschool.... some of the best and worst times there i had... i could write a nice sitcom out all my expirences there... almost like the classic 80's or even some newer highskool movies... but not like 'Not Another Teen Movie'(ok, maybe a lil like that) Big goofy kid with glasses, surrounded by many friends and teachers. writing this now... i started going through this shoebox of pictures i had. i seemed to have been quite a shutterbug. friends i still talk to, friends i wish i could still talk too and then theres that friend you really wished you just stayed as friends before making everything complicated.
yea but hey, whats done is done. i can never go back as just a friend for fear of remembering everything i need to ferget. everything that screwed it all up in the 1st place. its best to leave it at that, she'd be better off with me not in her life and i just have to do the same(regretfully). sad, yes i know. stupid... yup thats my face in the dictionary... um i'm tired and just rambling on here. i need to draw soemthing.... something new so i can post up in elfwood with my owther stuff...
i got a job as a intern over at the liberty science center last week. the gave me the grand tour of the place this past saturday. i even got to watch movies for free in their IMEX theatre, now that was a big screen! I've never been there before and now i work there... its pretty kewl... lets see how long this lasts. i say that cause i was laid off from BestBuy that same week. I was hired as an optional seasonal employee and sonce its after season, the store doesn't have the revenue to keep all its employees. its ok... it frees up time for me to work at the center. i do wish i get paid there though. dang it
friends want to get to moving out earlier than expected.... they said they want to be ready to move by march/april... i was expecting it to happen this summer. financially, thats too early, may/june would be easier for me. i would have graqduated and have adequet time to save up from one job while lookin into another... maybe even put my degree into use too... it would be an Associates degree in applied sciencewith my major as networking management... which is sitll pretty useless by itself. you see with computers a degree looks nice on a wall, but having a cert. would prove to anyone i know what say i can do. i'm thinking in going for my A+ 1st... which is bassically saying i can open a computer and fix it inside out.(mostly hardware) as well as getting my CCNE (i think thats what it is.Cisco Certified Networking Engineer) to complete my CISCO training that i started when i was 16 in highshool.
Highschool.... some of the best and worst times there i had... i could write a nice sitcom out all my expirences there... almost like the classic 80's or even some newer highskool movies... but not like 'Not Another Teen Movie'(ok, maybe a lil like that) Big goofy kid with glasses, surrounded by many friends and teachers. writing this now... i started going through this shoebox of pictures i had. i seemed to have been quite a shutterbug. friends i still talk to, friends i wish i could still talk too and then theres that friend you really wished you just stayed as friends before making everything complicated.
yea but hey, whats done is done. i can never go back as just a friend for fear of remembering everything i need to ferget. everything that screwed it all up in the 1st place. its best to leave it at that, she'd be better off with me not in her life and i just have to do the same(regretfully). sad, yes i know. stupid... yup thats my face in the dictionary... um i'm tired and just rambling on here. i need to draw soemthing.... something new so i can post up in elfwood with my owther stuff...