God... I'm back... heck yes I am!!!
So... History Maker "Revolution" was this weekend.
I honestly thought I'd have a horrible time, and want to go home. Boy was I wrong.
It was absolutely amazing... Reggie Dabbs' service made me speechless... he had the stadium hooked on his every word.
Leeland was awsome, his voice is craaazy.
The weekend seemed so long, yet so short... and I'm sad it ended. Having the other youth groups at the church was awsome!
On Monday, after History Maker ended I went home for a few hours, then headed back to Chilliwack to go to see "Disturbia" with Ricky. It was really good, didn't have to pay for tickets cause he works there... haha.
Ok guys... probably the past year, I have been pretty much ignoring God... and the past few months I've wanted nothing to do with him and I've been trying to push him out of my life as hard as I could. I hadn't read my bible pretty much all year, and I was just on a downward slope... going down fast.
This weekend, during Reggie's sermon, I knew I couldn't do this anymore. My life is completely meaningless and I wasn't going anywhere. I decided I wanted him back. I was crying that night because I felt horrible for being how I was being this past year. I really really felt I needed someone to talk to, but that didn't happen... because I didn't feel comfortable spilling my guts to anyone that was there at the moment because pretty much everyone was crying and, yah. Frick.
I was praying so hard for Jesus to come back into my life, but I just wasn't feeling it, I felt I really didn't want him, I didn't feel him.
Last night I went down to my room intending on painting my nails and then going to bed. But then I had the thought to read my bible.
So last night was the first time I had read my bible in months and months.
I started re-reading Acts, and I could seriously feel that I was about to figure something out, that God wanted me to see something he had been hoping to show me for a while.
At about Acts chapter 2... halfway through the chapter... one single sentence hit me, and boy did it hit me hard.
"Save yourself from this corrupt generation".
That was it. That is what he wanted me to see.
I seriously sat there staring at that page, re-reading that line over and over again for minutes... I was bewildered.
I was just casually reading, and then that single line stuck out like a sore thumb and I just knew immediately.
I read one more chapter after that, and then I prayed... and I prayed for probably 15-20 minutes without stopping and then I felt it.
He's back, I'm back... and I seriously hope I don't go through a low spot like that again.
I can deal with lows, just not ones like that... that was a test that I was lucky to pass.
I think I'm finally breaking down the wall that I couldn't get past.
"Save yourself from this corrupt generation"
-kayla-
I honestly thought I'd have a horrible time, and want to go home. Boy was I wrong.
It was absolutely amazing... Reggie Dabbs' service made me speechless... he had the stadium hooked on his every word.
Leeland was awsome, his voice is craaazy.
The weekend seemed so long, yet so short... and I'm sad it ended. Having the other youth groups at the church was awsome!
On Monday, after History Maker ended I went home for a few hours, then headed back to Chilliwack to go to see "Disturbia" with Ricky. It was really good, didn't have to pay for tickets cause he works there... haha.
Ok guys... probably the past year, I have been pretty much ignoring God... and the past few months I've wanted nothing to do with him and I've been trying to push him out of my life as hard as I could. I hadn't read my bible pretty much all year, and I was just on a downward slope... going down fast.
This weekend, during Reggie's sermon, I knew I couldn't do this anymore. My life is completely meaningless and I wasn't going anywhere. I decided I wanted him back. I was crying that night because I felt horrible for being how I was being this past year. I really really felt I needed someone to talk to, but that didn't happen... because I didn't feel comfortable spilling my guts to anyone that was there at the moment because pretty much everyone was crying and, yah. Frick.
I was praying so hard for Jesus to come back into my life, but I just wasn't feeling it, I felt I really didn't want him, I didn't feel him.
Last night I went down to my room intending on painting my nails and then going to bed. But then I had the thought to read my bible.
So last night was the first time I had read my bible in months and months.
I started re-reading Acts, and I could seriously feel that I was about to figure something out, that God wanted me to see something he had been hoping to show me for a while.
At about Acts chapter 2... halfway through the chapter... one single sentence hit me, and boy did it hit me hard.
"Save yourself from this corrupt generation".
That was it. That is what he wanted me to see.
I seriously sat there staring at that page, re-reading that line over and over again for minutes... I was bewildered.
I was just casually reading, and then that single line stuck out like a sore thumb and I just knew immediately.
I read one more chapter after that, and then I prayed... and I prayed for probably 15-20 minutes without stopping and then I felt it.
He's back, I'm back... and I seriously hope I don't go through a low spot like that again.
I can deal with lows, just not ones like that... that was a test that I was lucky to pass.
I think I'm finally breaking down the wall that I couldn't get past.
"Save yourself from this corrupt generation"
-kayla-