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AIM IM with Keith Goodwin .
1:05 AM
Nicole Fox: i don't know how to respond to that
Keith Goodwin: i didn't really expect one
Keith Goodwin: i'm just saying you seem very insecure, and i just wanted you to know that everything isn't your fault
Nicole Fox: did you do something?
1:10 AM
Keith Goodwin: i was talking about our bad sex
Keith Goodwin: but i think in general as well
Nicole Fox: um. ok.
Keith Goodwin: for example you seem to take it personal that we have bad sex. you asked me if it was something you did
Nicole Fox: well, yeah, bc if it was something i did i wanted to fix it.
Keith Goodwin: alright. i guess i misinterpreted that. i just didn't want you to think it was your fault or anything
Nicole Fox: i don't mean to make a big deal about it
Nicole Fox: it's just you seem to dread having sex... and it just made me think. and i don't really know anyone who's been in a similar situation
Nicole Fox: so i don't know who to vent. i have desires and needs too.
Keith Goodwin: yeah
Keith Goodwin: i just think we have too much. it's not as special anymore to me. i still like it, but i think it's just too much. sorry if i sound like a wuss or whatever
Keith Goodwin: i need to exercise more. i have some physilogical issues when i don't. i mainly just get stressed out and depressed which causes me to have no sex drive
Nicole Fox: aw. i'm sorry. i wish i could help you, but it sounds like i'm making things worse.
1:20 AM
Nicole Fox: because... er... i still do have one. i think you don't seem to want to hang out with me cause you're worried i'll want to do it or something.
Keith Goodwin: sorta
Nicole Fox: um. what do you want to do about it?
Nicole Fox: not hang out with me until you feel better about yourself? not to be rude. but it's no fun hanging out with you when you so obviously don't want to be around me.
Keith Goodwin: i just want to focus on our relationship instead of sex
1:25 AM
Nicole Fox: ... i guess i'm being insecure.
Nicole Fox: i'd LIKE to focus on just our relationship, but the point i made was i'm not sure how we can do that if you dread hanging out with me because you're worried i might be horny that day.
Keith Goodwin: i'm not afraid to hang out with you
Nicole Fox: youre acting like it
1:30 AM
Nicole Fox: or at least, you're not as happy as you used to be.
Keith Goodwin: probably just because i've been stressed out hardcore the past week
Nicole Fox: with me
Nicole Fox: all i'm saying is..... this is really painful but lately you don't seem to care. do you really still want to be with me? you don't like being with me (you may not be afraid but i can tell something's turning you off from me hardcore), you don't like having sex with me. what's left? why do you want me?
Nicole Fox: i'm just very unhappy because you don't seem to want anything from me anymore
Nicole Fox: anything
Keith Goodwin: i just wanted to make it work if it could
Keith Goodwin: but maybe not
Nicole Fox: i don't think i've changed
Keith Goodwin: i don't think you have either
Nicole Fox: i just don't think you really care
Nicole Fox: you're just kinda putting the effort forth so you don't seem like an asshole because damnit, I DO CARE
1:35 AM
Keith Goodwin: i know you do. you care very much
Nicole Fox: do you? at all?
Keith Goodwin: i just don't want to be in a relationship any more. it has nothing to do with you. i just can't handle the time commitment i guess
Nicole Fox: how can you be that fickle?
Nicole Fox: how can you be that shallow?
Nicole Fox: just because you're a little stressed out, you don't care / love anymore?
Nicole Fox: you don't think i'm stressed out at all? seriously?
Keith Goodwin: i know you're stressed out too
Keith Goodwin: and i try to care, but it seems like every time i try to get something done, you'd distract me. even though i invited you, eventually after you convinced me. and it just became like being in a relationship was more time that i had to budget
Nicole Fox: well, what do you want from me?
Nicole Fox: can you see how this hurts me? deeply? how little everything must have mattered to you, if you can throw it away this easily?
Keith Goodwin: it's not exactly fun for me either
Nicole Fox: YOU JUST SAID YOU DON'T CARE KEITH
Keith Goodwin: i did not say that
Nicole Fox: "i try to care"
Keith Goodwin: that doesn't mean i totally had no feelings at all for you. i do
Keith Goodwin: you think i never cared for you at all?
Nicole Fox: at first, sure
Nicole Fox: this past week, no. i think you wanted to skip that concert.
Keith Goodwin: i liked it a lot actually. i was telling my friends about it all weekend
Nicole Fox: you pull away when i touch you sometimes lately
Nicole Fox: but i still really really like you and i'm in tears. i think you're great and funny and smart and gorgeous and nice.
Nicole Fox: but you're busy
Nicole Fox: and i feel really unwanted
Nicole Fox: and i just want to know
Nicole Fox: do you still want me?
Nicole Fox: just say yes or no
Keith Goodwin: no i do not want to be in a relationship with you
Nicole Fox: alright.
Nicole Fox: fine then,
Nicole Fox: i don't know what else to say to you.
Keith Goodwin: you're nice, and you're smart, and quirky, and i like that, but i can't handle the time, and your insecurity, and your clingyness.
Nicole Fox: i'll miss you. a lot. thanks for everything.
Nicole Fox: bye.
Nicole Fox: i wish you had told me earlier.
Keith Goodwin: i didn't really want to bring it up at all
Nicole Fox: ?!?!?!?!
Nicole Fox: and break up with later?!?!?!
Nicole Fox: after finals, when you had more to to mope about it?
Nicole Fox: next time you date someone and you stop caring about them
Nicole Fox: TELL THEM
1:05 AM
Nicole Fox: i don't know how to respond to that
Keith Goodwin: i didn't really expect one
Keith Goodwin: i'm just saying you seem very insecure, and i just wanted you to know that everything isn't your fault
Nicole Fox: did you do something?
1:10 AM
Keith Goodwin: i was talking about our bad sex
Keith Goodwin: but i think in general as well
Nicole Fox: um. ok.
Keith Goodwin: for example you seem to take it personal that we have bad sex. you asked me if it was something you did
Nicole Fox: well, yeah, bc if it was something i did i wanted to fix it.
Keith Goodwin: alright. i guess i misinterpreted that. i just didn't want you to think it was your fault or anything
Nicole Fox: i don't mean to make a big deal about it
Nicole Fox: it's just you seem to dread having sex... and it just made me think. and i don't really know anyone who's been in a similar situation
Nicole Fox: so i don't know who to vent. i have desires and needs too.
Keith Goodwin: yeah
Keith Goodwin: i just think we have too much. it's not as special anymore to me. i still like it, but i think it's just too much. sorry if i sound like a wuss or whatever
Keith Goodwin: i need to exercise more. i have some physilogical issues when i don't. i mainly just get stressed out and depressed which causes me to have no sex drive
Nicole Fox: aw. i'm sorry. i wish i could help you, but it sounds like i'm making things worse.
1:20 AM
Nicole Fox: because... er... i still do have one. i think you don't seem to want to hang out with me cause you're worried i'll want to do it or something.
Keith Goodwin: sorta
Nicole Fox: um. what do you want to do about it?
Nicole Fox: not hang out with me until you feel better about yourself? not to be rude. but it's no fun hanging out with you when you so obviously don't want to be around me.
Keith Goodwin: i just want to focus on our relationship instead of sex
1:25 AM
Nicole Fox: ... i guess i'm being insecure.
Nicole Fox: i'd LIKE to focus on just our relationship, but the point i made was i'm not sure how we can do that if you dread hanging out with me because you're worried i might be horny that day.
Keith Goodwin: i'm not afraid to hang out with you
Nicole Fox: youre acting like it
1:30 AM
Nicole Fox: or at least, you're not as happy as you used to be.
Keith Goodwin: probably just because i've been stressed out hardcore the past week
Nicole Fox: with me
Nicole Fox: all i'm saying is..... this is really painful but lately you don't seem to care. do you really still want to be with me? you don't like being with me (you may not be afraid but i can tell something's turning you off from me hardcore), you don't like having sex with me. what's left? why do you want me?
Nicole Fox: i'm just very unhappy because you don't seem to want anything from me anymore
Nicole Fox: anything
Keith Goodwin: i just wanted to make it work if it could
Keith Goodwin: but maybe not
Nicole Fox: i don't think i've changed
Keith Goodwin: i don't think you have either
Nicole Fox: i just don't think you really care
Nicole Fox: you're just kinda putting the effort forth so you don't seem like an asshole because damnit, I DO CARE
1:35 AM
Keith Goodwin: i know you do. you care very much
Nicole Fox: do you? at all?
Keith Goodwin: i just don't want to be in a relationship any more. it has nothing to do with you. i just can't handle the time commitment i guess
Nicole Fox: how can you be that fickle?
Nicole Fox: how can you be that shallow?
Nicole Fox: just because you're a little stressed out, you don't care / love anymore?
Nicole Fox: you don't think i'm stressed out at all? seriously?
Keith Goodwin: i know you're stressed out too
Keith Goodwin: and i try to care, but it seems like every time i try to get something done, you'd distract me. even though i invited you, eventually after you convinced me. and it just became like being in a relationship was more time that i had to budget
Nicole Fox: well, what do you want from me?
Nicole Fox: can you see how this hurts me? deeply? how little everything must have mattered to you, if you can throw it away this easily?
Keith Goodwin: it's not exactly fun for me either
Nicole Fox: YOU JUST SAID YOU DON'T CARE KEITH
Keith Goodwin: i did not say that
Nicole Fox: "i try to care"
Keith Goodwin: that doesn't mean i totally had no feelings at all for you. i do
Keith Goodwin: you think i never cared for you at all?
Nicole Fox: at first, sure
Nicole Fox: this past week, no. i think you wanted to skip that concert.
Keith Goodwin: i liked it a lot actually. i was telling my friends about it all weekend
Nicole Fox: you pull away when i touch you sometimes lately
Nicole Fox: but i still really really like you and i'm in tears. i think you're great and funny and smart and gorgeous and nice.
Nicole Fox: but you're busy
Nicole Fox: and i feel really unwanted
Nicole Fox: and i just want to know
Nicole Fox: do you still want me?
Nicole Fox: just say yes or no
Keith Goodwin: no i do not want to be in a relationship with you
Nicole Fox: alright.
Nicole Fox: fine then,
Nicole Fox: i don't know what else to say to you.
Keith Goodwin: you're nice, and you're smart, and quirky, and i like that, but i can't handle the time, and your insecurity, and your clingyness.
Nicole Fox: i'll miss you. a lot. thanks for everything.
Nicole Fox: bye.
Nicole Fox: i wish you had told me earlier.
Keith Goodwin: i didn't really want to bring it up at all
Nicole Fox: ?!?!?!?!
Nicole Fox: and break up with later?!?!?!
Nicole Fox: after finals, when you had more to to mope about it?
Nicole Fox: next time you date someone and you stop caring about them
Nicole Fox: TELL THEM