FM Challenge #44 Unconditional fandom_muses
Love, that’s what I think about first, when I think about just the word ‘unconditional’. I never received unconditional love from my mother, perhaps from my father, mother was so domineering and controlling, even him; I would like to think he did love me unconditionally. The first images that come to my mind is love one reads about in one of Rupert’s beloved books, although I doubt he’s read many of them, not books in general, but books dealing with love. Granted he’s probably read all of the classics, yet I found it doubtful he’s read love poem for pleasure, his nose, I’d imagine would be stuck in some erudite occult codex.
My younger sister, Mala, all I’ve known about unconditional love, I’ve learned from her, and from my grandmother Rosa. Mala followed me around like a wide-eyed puppy, and my grandmother, well, how could you describe Rosa? I’m not sure I can without breaking down in tears.
When I met Rupert, and I fell for him, I had to make a choice, not only one of survival, but to do what I’d been taught, schooled in since I could understand. You can’t imagine what is like to be Romany nor would I want you to. Meeting Rupert taught me two things, that regardless how much you love a person, some things go in too deep, some things you can’t deny. I would have done anything to be able to walk away from it all; I’d done it once, left my clan for a different life.
Walking away I left my sister, that was the most difficult thing I’d ever done before, turning my back on everything, and when I was ready, I was going to get my sister out of there. It didn’t last, and I knew it, even if I wouldn’t admit it to myself.
There was Uncle to ensure I did like I was told, unconditionally. It’s not about love, it never was, and never is, not when you are an adult. It is always about something more
Obeying the Kalderash …. unconditionally, you can never walk away.
Muse: Jenny Calendar
Fandom: Buffy
Word Count: 351
My younger sister, Mala, all I’ve known about unconditional love, I’ve learned from her, and from my grandmother Rosa. Mala followed me around like a wide-eyed puppy, and my grandmother, well, how could you describe Rosa? I’m not sure I can without breaking down in tears.
When I met Rupert, and I fell for him, I had to make a choice, not only one of survival, but to do what I’d been taught, schooled in since I could understand. You can’t imagine what is like to be Romany nor would I want you to. Meeting Rupert taught me two things, that regardless how much you love a person, some things go in too deep, some things you can’t deny. I would have done anything to be able to walk away from it all; I’d done it once, left my clan for a different life.
Walking away I left my sister, that was the most difficult thing I’d ever done before, turning my back on everything, and when I was ready, I was going to get my sister out of there. It didn’t last, and I knew it, even if I wouldn’t admit it to myself.
There was Uncle to ensure I did like I was told, unconditionally. It’s not about love, it never was, and never is, not when you are an adult. It is always about something more
Obeying the Kalderash …. unconditionally, you can never walk away.
Muse: Jenny Calendar
Fandom: Buffy
Word Count: 351