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It's no secret that I make a lot of mistakes. I blunder a lot, say things and do things that I later regret. Sometimes I think my actions through very carefully and considerately, other times I'm very impulsive and I just act as I think. It comes off as a very confusing personality, and I think this huge contradiction within my personality is something that turns people away, and what makes me people not really accept me entirely. Or abandon me when I make a big enough blunder.
But...I think I've finally found people who, despite that negative aspect of my personality, not only accept me, but they don't give up on me. And that's almost become more important than acceptance. I know I will never find someone who shares the exact same mind set as I do. I don't want to meet someone like that, it would be far too boring. But, I've realized that it's hard to find people who won't give up on you.
I think I've found them, though. And I just hope that they will continue to keep considering me. Because I know I'll still make mistakes. Even though I recognize my mistakes, I still can't stop them. I'm too impulsive to. But something tells me...they won't give up on me. They won't scream at me, yell at me, blame me for my wrong-doings. They'll...they'll forgive me and continue on being my friend.
It's amazing.
But...I think I've finally found people who, despite that negative aspect of my personality, not only accept me, but they don't give up on me. And that's almost become more important than acceptance. I know I will never find someone who shares the exact same mind set as I do. I don't want to meet someone like that, it would be far too boring. But, I've realized that it's hard to find people who won't give up on you.
I think I've found them, though. And I just hope that they will continue to keep considering me. Because I know I'll still make mistakes. Even though I recognize my mistakes, I still can't stop them. I'm too impulsive to. But something tells me...they won't give up on me. They won't scream at me, yell at me, blame me for my wrong-doings. They'll...they'll forgive me and continue on being my friend.
It's amazing.