so WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?

[technicol0rgirl]

i was driving down bells ferry passing that BP and video warehouse... when a sweet lil kitty cat pokes it's fucking head out and i see it's stupid yellow eyes and think to myself "i can miss it, i have to, it's a cat" so i swerve to the right being the only one on the road--i turn too much, i lose control so i turn my wheel to the left, i hit the median...going... ooh maybe 50 mph? i hit a curb, a fire hydrant, and a the sign of the chruch. when it all stopped...i couldn't believe i was alive, i couldn't believe i was okay, i had water bottles that had spilt and i figured i was covered in blood. my front was fucked, i had no passenger window, the entire right side of my car was covered in mud and grass, i don't know if i flipped but i was facing the opposite way i was travling, my trunk and rear window GONE, both air bags out... fucking totaled. without question... i never hit my brakes. THAT'S HOW FAST THIS ALL HAPPEND. i think about the crashing, listening to all of that happen to my car just thinking "no way, this isn't real". but i am okay. i had a bump on my head, my neck is killing me, a bruise on my chest from the sealbelt (WHICH JUST SO YOU KNOW IF I HAD'T BEEN WEARING I WOULD IN FACT BE CRITICALLY INJURED OR DEAD SO PLEASE AT ALL TIMES WEAR THAT MOTHERFUCKER) and burns on my wrists from the airbags. i went to the ER, was there until 4 am and yea..i'm good. but now my vacation is coming up, i can't spend any money, in fact i may have to consider picking up shifts in order to save up for a new down payment. but i was insurred... i know i have so much to be thankful for, like being okay and alive but i am so heartbroken about my car. and also scared shitless about driving. i don't know how i'm going to go over 10 mph ever again. but overall i'm depressed..........extremely.

nothing bad ever happens to me.......but of course this HAD to happen a few days before the potential best wk of my life. fuck this shit i'm so angry.