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It's so weird to go back and read old entries that I don't even remember writing.
But since we're reflecting, this time last year I was still completely broken up over a failed relationship.
I feel like I've grown so much as a person in only a year.
I've learned more about myself in this past year or two than I have in any other time in my life.
I feel that now I know who I am. If you asked me, I could explain it to you.
Before, I had no idea.
And this scares and reassures me at the same time.
I kindof want some excuse to be younger longer, to explore who I am, but I basically already know it.
It's scary because it makes me feel complete. And independent. Those are desirable qualities, yes?
Is it terrible to want to need someone?
And damnit, the closer you get to someone, the harder it is to be away from them.
Always slightly out of reach.
I wish I could skip these two tests and go right to Friday night.
Ohmygod I cannot wait until Friday night.
That was way too much fucking introspection.
But since we're reflecting, this time last year I was still completely broken up over a failed relationship.
I feel like I've grown so much as a person in only a year.
I've learned more about myself in this past year or two than I have in any other time in my life.
I feel that now I know who I am. If you asked me, I could explain it to you.
Before, I had no idea.
And this scares and reassures me at the same time.
I kindof want some excuse to be younger longer, to explore who I am, but I basically already know it.
It's scary because it makes me feel complete. And independent. Those are desirable qualities, yes?
Is it terrible to want to need someone?
And damnit, the closer you get to someone, the harder it is to be away from them.
Always slightly out of reach.
I wish I could skip these two tests and go right to Friday night.
Ohmygod I cannot wait until Friday night.
That was way too much fucking introspection.