the hardest moment of my life......
Well as I sit here and my room and cry thinking back on the last few months I had to say goodbye to the most amazing people ive ever known. Karlnell has been a huge part of my life since the end of febuary and I could never ever thank gib enough for knowning someone like him.Ive cried so many tears for him some happy some sad Ive laughed with him and shared secrets with him and shared myslef with him he has seen me at worst of times and at the best of times...I care for him so much and I want to be a part of his life forever in that special way..anyone that knows me and him know how much he means to me...Just his presence in a room can make me smile Well tonight I had to say my goodbye to him somthing I have been dreading since the begining of may we spent most of the day together we hung out from dinner until now...we spent time in the room then went to hooters I bought him some dinner then we went to a party and came back here chilled for awhile had a barbecue outside with all of our friends and then we spent that alone time together until his family got here he held me for awhile and I wanted to cry so bad but I held it in and then it was time to go he walked me to my room told me not to forget to call him like I would ever ever forget him I want to call him like four times a day every day but I wont maybe once a week unlsss he aks for more or less.. Im going to miss that boy like crazy I dont think anyone knows...well I am going to try and fall asleep