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What the shell is wrong with me? I drop everything and go out to drink? Though I admit that it wasn't so bad forgetting everything for at least one night. I refuse to make a habit of this but...
With Leo gone, I can't help but worry. It's like...everything that made my timeline hell is coming back to haunt me. Maybe Avoria thought I was taking it for granted, I don't know. I've been tempted to move back in with Raph just to keep an eye on him but I'm sure that the mere suggestion would be met with a lot of resistance.
I'm just...I'm not him. I can never be him and that's one of my biggest failings. I know that I'm depended on because I'm so well-read. But I've learnt the hard way that it doesn't translate to knowing how to handle all these situations that crop up. I can't rein in Raph's temper and I can barely keep up with Mikey. I'm just not good enough...
...I know Leo will be back. I just...hope he comes back soon.
It's amazing how much I still had to learn. I never realized how much I did until I came here. I'm glad the library is so extensive and has everything relating to nearly every subject. Summer school isn't so bad. I'll be prepared for next year in no time.