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[tech_chic]

SOOOOOO... I've had an interesting past few weeks!! I hate my life. I might be about to move to a new school and some people HATE me. And my lifes interest is going down the tube. yes thats right theatre is beginning to suck, all because phagan hates me and has decided to make my life a living hell. I need someone to talk to and since i dont even really have that, i guess thats what this live journals for!! but anyways, I want to be great at something not just ok but great! That what i wanted theater to be but as it turns out i suck at that too! now i have nothing to look forward to. It used to be having my own theatre and classes for kids and plays that were going to be great!! but, that kinda flew out the window and now its gone. I saw aubrey addy's baby today. she was soooo... cute! I want one but not until i'm married and have a successful career and millions of dollars!! But, for some reason right now i cant ever see me being happy! I cant ever picture me with a baby. or i can but in the wrong circumstances and then i'm miserable! Everything bad always happens to me. I always get pulled over. I always get caught and i do the same things as everyone else does. Oh yeah did i mention the nazi bitch i have for a mom!! I mean i love her but my god the world does not have to be cleaning 24/7!!!and if theres on spec of dust it doesn't have to be cleaned. oh yeah and she's controlling and never lets me do anything!!! And there the whole charles thing. I want to hate him jeana wants me to hate him so why dont i hate him already? Is there a real reason i dont hate him? Nope, I dont think so i'm just, GOING MENTAL!!!! Oh yeah and i want to have what i had last summer with him!! But he'll never know. He cant EVER know. and he wont because he doesn't have my sn!!! ha ha beat that asshole!! oh well later i'll polly mark this private so he really can't read it and then i'll come to my senses and wake up from this idiotic dream of mine to be something! Oh well i'll get over the fact that i'll never amount to anything remotely good! Talk to you guys later bye!!!!
Urs truly,
Chelsea!!