*Sigh*
Well I'm just sitting here in Advanced Photo with nothing to really do today. I already finished everything I was planning to. But I guess I have been thinking about this weekend alot. I guess at the time it was a great thing. But now, I dont know what kind of price I have to pay for it. Right now I just want to scream out my deepest thoughts. I wanna tell, how I feel about them. But now half of me hates them, the other half is the exact opposite. Is that even possible? I dont know, but I guess I will have to wait and see. For some odd reason listening to YellowCard has made me think about it even more. I dunno why, I guess its because I have been really paying attention to the lyrics and thats how I feel about them right now. I made a mistake, took a risk, thought I was going somewhere. Turns out it was straight into a brick wall. Meh, life is not the thing that is confusing. Its the ones that mess with your emotions that confuse you. I sort of wish that I didnt go to ball, that I didnt do some of the things I did this weekend. Oh and dont bother trying to read the journals from then. I put them away into friends. So yeah, I thought I knew, but I guess I was way off with everything. Thats just like me. Oh god, now I'm glad I didnt say what I was really thinking that night. Probably give me even more troubles right now. I didnt think that one weekend could mess with me this much. I just wanna go up to them and say "hey..." and just say everything I wanted to for so long. I'm not writing it here, I dont know who could be reading it. I've known them for only about two years but still, I cant get it out of my head no matter how hard I try sooner or later it comes crawling back. I guess I'm not allowed to live long joyful times, just short happy moments throughout life. Till MUCH later.