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i had a doctors appt today.
he told me no meds until i go back to outpatient rehab.
i'm not out to get fucked up, but it'd be nice to have something at least mildly sedating.
i'm not really looking forward to not drinking (mainly due to the fact that i have half a bottle of johnnie walker left, and i really like scotch), but i have to admit, aside from the OCD and the panick attacks, i like myself better when i spend time sober. half the time i drink, it's to turn my head off, and it'd be nice to do that without having to be all fucked up.
i dont even really enjoy it anymore.
in other news...
i'll be working the billy joel show next week.
we have 2 days of work, so i'll be getting $300 for basically just washing dishes for 2 days... AND i get to see billy for free!
he told me no meds until i go back to outpatient rehab.
i'm not out to get fucked up, but it'd be nice to have something at least mildly sedating.
i'm not really looking forward to not drinking (mainly due to the fact that i have half a bottle of johnnie walker left, and i really like scotch), but i have to admit, aside from the OCD and the panick attacks, i like myself better when i spend time sober. half the time i drink, it's to turn my head off, and it'd be nice to do that without having to be all fucked up.
i dont even really enjoy it anymore.
in other news...
i'll be working the billy joel show next week.
we have 2 days of work, so i'll be getting $300 for basically just washing dishes for 2 days... AND i get to see billy for free!