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David. I love him to death.
=\ but what about Ryan?
I feel so fucking horrible. Its like... i dont know. I have no idea what im thinking. =(
(Me and David)
But dont we make a cute couple?
Yea, who cares what your oppinion is. Its not like anyone ever reads my LJ.
Its not like if you say ''no you dont make a cute couple'' then im gonna break up with him,
because im totaly not going to.
But omg. guess what?
I took something very special from him.
Something people keep untill they find a very ritous loved one.
I feel happy to have taken it from him.
Oh so happy.
Okay, blah. now i feel like a fucking hoe.
But im not.
And rory...
(rory)
He can suck my cock.
I mean, i dont know what i feel for him.
I love him,
then i hate him.
Then i love him
Then i hate him
I love him because he was the first and only person i ever loved soo much it hurt.
And i hate him for making me feel like i was worthless and....breaking my heart. Wich by the way put me in a major ass fucking depression. My mom acually thought he raped me because i was dating him and stuff like that.. then all of a sudden i was this low life who was sad all the time.
any way.. i hate him...but i love him.
And not appologizing for anything he's ever said to me.
Well he did once. But i dont think he was being honest.
(me,Rory,Pam)
See, i mean. I loved him. Im still not over him.
dont think i'll ever be.
But damn, i need to stop being like i am.
i have David.
he's never hurt me, .... Ever.
and rory. Hurt me with all the arguing me and him used to/still do.
GOD WHY AM I SO DAMNED CONFUSED.
*hugs knees*
I'll have some time tomorrow morning. And i'll spill the beans on all the dirty details.
hopefully Jessie will get to my layout soon, because i cant write journals in pen any more.
My step mom goes through my room, and fucking reads all my shit.
So i guess online is all i have to trust.
HA. what trust is online.
im such a loser.
Okay. well i have to get some sleep. or im going to pass out here on my keybord....
and that wouldnt be kewl.. because then all you'd read was:
asd;fklasdjfl;aksdjlaskdfj;askldfjaskl;dfjasdklfjasdkl;fjasdklfjasdl;fkja;sdklfjasdfklja;fioaweuraklsdnaklsdgjawiergj
Yea. and that ^^^^ isnt kewl.
Nigh night.