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jesus christ!
I woke up late today which means i didnt go to school which means im definately dead meat with my g-ma.
my mom came home yesterday. the policeman dropped her off. her boyfriend threw her down the steps of his apartment. im not sure why but hes a spaz drunk and there in lies your answer. deep deep within. so i woke up today andwhen i finally made myself get my lazy ass out of bed [ten seconds ago] and brush my teeth becuz i must have refreshed teeth at all times, i looked in the mirror and didnt realize the "little things" in my life right now. i mean, all i thought when i looked at the person with messy hair and a faint smile was that i wasnt a little girl anymore. i mean, im not that nine-year-old girl in the formal photograph. and for once, all i thought about was my future. now given, this was a very guick thought becuz i dont stand at the mirror and gaze at my facial features much, but it was just a beautiful thougt it was to not be at all stressed by stupid things like school anymore.
i dont think i'll ever forget in my middle school years when it felt like everyweek i was grounded becuz of my grades and i went around telling everybody becuz it was important to me. i remember an entry on ujournal posted by a friend who wrote along with her other updates, "ericka was grounded becuz of her grades" it's like...when wasn't i grounded becuz of my grades? that was the entire 6, 7, and 8th grade! but today i just forgot about it. i like that feeling. becuz im not accomplishing much and i really dont need to worry about such things right now...its not a detrimental thing anymore. well im gonna go and eat something. last night's dinner was a nutter butter becuz i aint wanna get off my sofa and my mom wouldn't bring me anything else. lol.
oh and i definately got too much sleep last nite cuz i am so tired and i hate waking up at 11
I woke up late today which means i didnt go to school which means im definately dead meat with my g-ma.
my mom came home yesterday. the policeman dropped her off. her boyfriend threw her down the steps of his apartment. im not sure why but hes a spaz drunk and there in lies your answer. deep deep within. so i woke up today andwhen i finally made myself get my lazy ass out of bed [ten seconds ago] and brush my teeth becuz i must have refreshed teeth at all times, i looked in the mirror and didnt realize the "little things" in my life right now. i mean, all i thought when i looked at the person with messy hair and a faint smile was that i wasnt a little girl anymore. i mean, im not that nine-year-old girl in the formal photograph. and for once, all i thought about was my future. now given, this was a very guick thought becuz i dont stand at the mirror and gaze at my facial features much, but it was just a beautiful thougt it was to not be at all stressed by stupid things like school anymore.
i dont think i'll ever forget in my middle school years when it felt like everyweek i was grounded becuz of my grades and i went around telling everybody becuz it was important to me. i remember an entry on ujournal posted by a friend who wrote along with her other updates, "ericka was grounded becuz of her grades" it's like...when wasn't i grounded becuz of my grades? that was the entire 6, 7, and 8th grade! but today i just forgot about it. i like that feeling. becuz im not accomplishing much and i really dont need to worry about such things right now...its not a detrimental thing anymore. well im gonna go and eat something. last night's dinner was a nutter butter becuz i aint wanna get off my sofa and my mom wouldn't bring me anything else. lol.
oh and i definately got too much sleep last nite cuz i am so tired and i hate waking up at 11