sometimes
I wish things could be done differently.
Words could be unspoken.
Emotions could be left unfelt.
I am very happy where Im at right now.
Although I am sorry the way things went.
I just dont deserve all of the blame.
I had based a lot of things on "us"
but now thats not a possibility.
I gave up.
and I gave up for a reason.
Multiple actually.
Though I found someone new,
someone I've known for quite a few years.
Who also is a lot like me in how i think.
I think its a good thing.
Journals are meant to be for your thoughts
but yet my thoughts seem to just create trouble.
I dont really see why I mean
if its such a problem dont read it.
I miss a lot of things in general.
My old group of friends
I used to hang out with them every single day.
but once we all went off the college it was kind of like a split
I miss it just being me and the boys ha.
don't get me wrong i love my best friends.
but sometimes i think about the past
and all the fun that we all had.
and i miss it.
Oh well.
just a few more weeks until its me and my kitties in milwaukee
well me, my kitty, and ashley's kitty.
I honestly can't wait to get back to school though.
Even though most of my friends dont go there anymore.
It will still be briana meghan ashley and i.
I honestly dont mind living by myself.
I enjoy the silence and alone time.
Here I am, weary heart in trembling hands.