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[tearstakeover]

I just finished talking with my parents, and am wondering what is the best way to end this pain. So many terrible thoughts are running through my head, and it all seems to easy. One pull of the trigger and it would all be done with, but there's this boy, who I never looked inside of before. He is my angel, and I have given him nothing. This boy,

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[mailorderlove]

in one point in my life all i seemed to do was disappoint my parents more and more by each day. and every single day i would get the same lecture and be told how i've changed over the years and how they're going to take everything away from me and send me to a private school because i have too many distractions in my life and it's leading me down the drain. after a while crying myself to sleep became a habit because you can't get away from your parents, they're always there. and you can't tell them to be quiet and to stop lecturing because they are always there. and i thought about suicide so many times because there's nothing i hate more than feeling like all i can do is disappoint them. but then you have to think about the people out there who really do love you. it's so easy to just say goodbye, it's so easy to make it all be over with. but just think, in time things will get better. and you will learn from your mistakes and be able to prove to your parents that you're not a disappointment even though they never thought that in the first place. i hope everything goes okay, layne. and if you ever need anyone to talk to you have my screen name on aim. <3

[tearstakeover]

wow, that was so fucking nice alicia. thank you so much for being here. everything you said is what im feeling. i just wish time would go faster instead of the slower pace it seems to have adapted to. i try and sleep alot, and yeah, crying is the only way that seems to happen, but at least it works.