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How does something like this happen? How can people feel so much hate that they can just kill and hurt so many people? I feel physically sick every time I think about it. All those families, all those people suffering.
Another person died today. Her father told the news station, "My baby didn't make it." Another person dead. Another life just completely over. Someone has stopped living, parents have lost their child, friends have lost their friend all because one stupid man needed to feel powerful.
I was watching all the news that tried to explain why someone would do something like this. There were all these different reasons and all these different signs, and I didn't feel one single ounce of sympathy for this person. I don't care if he felt alone in this world, and I don't care if he had some kind of illness. I just don't care. There isn't an excuse, because in the end, he killed himself. He knew he was doing wrong, and he knew that he was killing people, that he was tearing apart families and lives.
I feel so sick when I think about him. I don't understand.. if he was going to kill himself anyway why the hell couldn't he just kill himself and leave everyone else alone. I know that this sounds so sick and heartless, but I don't care. Those people didn't deserve to die, and maybe he didn't either, but if he was so miserable and hateful toward life, then why couldn't he just have killed himself.
My school just held a prayer of solidarity for the students of Virginia Tech. We conducted it at the same time they conducted theirs. It was beautiful, and it made me appreciate my school and the community here. I know that it'd be naive to think that something like this coudl never happen here, and I know that it could, but still, I consider myself so lucky to be at such a wonderfully compassionate school. The prayer service was short, but powerful. I was so overwhelmed with it all that I couldn't stop crying. I didn't even really know anyone from there, and the one person I did know, I only know through livejournal, but I couldn't help but imagine all those people dead and hurt and all their families suffering.
I've felt so affected by this. I feel bad because I feel as though I don't really have any right to be so upset about it, but I can't help it. Ruthie thinks it's because we can relate to the situation so easily because it happened on a college campus. That's true, but the fact that it happened on a college campus scares me more than it upsets me. I just feels so awful for the families. I don't know what I would do if something like this happened to me.
I've been more than fortunate. I've had very minimal tragedy in my life, and the tragedy I have suffered through, I've been lucky enough to have my family and friends help me through it.
It's things like these that make me so afraid for my new baby cousin and even more afraid to ever have children of my own. It's just so scary to know what people are capable of, and it's like some kind of sick competition- like everyone needs to keep outdoing eachother.
My thoughts and prayers are with everyone affected.
Another person died today. Her father told the news station, "My baby didn't make it." Another person dead. Another life just completely over. Someone has stopped living, parents have lost their child, friends have lost their friend all because one stupid man needed to feel powerful.
I was watching all the news that tried to explain why someone would do something like this. There were all these different reasons and all these different signs, and I didn't feel one single ounce of sympathy for this person. I don't care if he felt alone in this world, and I don't care if he had some kind of illness. I just don't care. There isn't an excuse, because in the end, he killed himself. He knew he was doing wrong, and he knew that he was killing people, that he was tearing apart families and lives.
I feel so sick when I think about him. I don't understand.. if he was going to kill himself anyway why the hell couldn't he just kill himself and leave everyone else alone. I know that this sounds so sick and heartless, but I don't care. Those people didn't deserve to die, and maybe he didn't either, but if he was so miserable and hateful toward life, then why couldn't he just have killed himself.
My school just held a prayer of solidarity for the students of Virginia Tech. We conducted it at the same time they conducted theirs. It was beautiful, and it made me appreciate my school and the community here. I know that it'd be naive to think that something like this coudl never happen here, and I know that it could, but still, I consider myself so lucky to be at such a wonderfully compassionate school. The prayer service was short, but powerful. I was so overwhelmed with it all that I couldn't stop crying. I didn't even really know anyone from there, and the one person I did know, I only know through livejournal, but I couldn't help but imagine all those people dead and hurt and all their families suffering.
I've felt so affected by this. I feel bad because I feel as though I don't really have any right to be so upset about it, but I can't help it. Ruthie thinks it's because we can relate to the situation so easily because it happened on a college campus. That's true, but the fact that it happened on a college campus scares me more than it upsets me. I just feels so awful for the families. I don't know what I would do if something like this happened to me.
I've been more than fortunate. I've had very minimal tragedy in my life, and the tragedy I have suffered through, I've been lucky enough to have my family and friends help me through it.
It's things like these that make me so afraid for my new baby cousin and even more afraid to ever have children of my own. It's just so scary to know what people are capable of, and it's like some kind of sick competition- like everyone needs to keep outdoing eachother.
My thoughts and prayers are with everyone affected.