its been too long

[tearstainedlife]

so i know i say that every time hahha but really it has been too long. i sometime bottle things up for too long and then i say shit to people that i shouldnt. so i really need to let it out.

my life lately

I am single and loving it
I feel hurt by my ex because i was treated like shit
I feel bad for the girl that he is with now cause she has no idea what she is in for.
I am embracing my life with every ounce of energy that i have
I joined a gym
I lost five pounds
I have a blind double date on wednesday and i heard the guy is amazing
I have DVR and it is the best
I love my room I have everything i will ever need in it
I am going to cabo in June
I have been hurt really badly by a boy and i am ready for a man
I am finally starting to have my hair feel long and i love it
I totaled my car back in December
I now have a steel of a car that i got for $500
I have met such good friends in the past three months
I am going to cascadia still
I am getting really good grades
I cant sleep because i had straight shoots of espresso at work
I think i might go to the gym since i cant sleep

Question how can i go from having 10 guys like me (just a month ago) to only 3 guys (currently) i am very disappointed in myself!!! i better step up my game hahahha