pagpaparaya.
i guess it's better this way. the only person to get hurt is me.
no, that's actually not true. they both got hurt when they broke up, and are obviously still hurting. it's easy to see via their profiles -- pain is evident, i can almost slice it with a knife. and even though i wasn't directly involved, i feel guilty. i feel bad having to see her usually bright face all slack and sad in pictures. i feel bad that i knew their relationship was headed downhill even before she had an inkling. my former adversary, now has my deepest compassion. and because of the haunted expression in her eyes, i've decided to back off. it matters little that i was on cloud 9 just days before because of what he was asking me. 2 days ago... now seems like a whole lifetime back. i don't even know what his intentions were, but i do know i can't contribute to someone else's pain. this maybe a bit premature, and regrets might inevitably set in, but i just can't bring myself to long for something that wasn't mine to begin with. i feel so strongly about how right we are for each other, yet i feel just as strongly about this being all wrong. i don't think i'm making any sense, which is how i know this is real. i'm going against everything my heart is telling me, but the one holding the reins now is my head.
so this is how it feels to really let someone go. it kills.
no, that's actually not true. they both got hurt when they broke up, and are obviously still hurting. it's easy to see via their profiles -- pain is evident, i can almost slice it with a knife. and even though i wasn't directly involved, i feel guilty. i feel bad having to see her usually bright face all slack and sad in pictures. i feel bad that i knew their relationship was headed downhill even before she had an inkling. my former adversary, now has my deepest compassion. and because of the haunted expression in her eyes, i've decided to back off. it matters little that i was on cloud 9 just days before because of what he was asking me. 2 days ago... now seems like a whole lifetime back. i don't even know what his intentions were, but i do know i can't contribute to someone else's pain. this maybe a bit premature, and regrets might inevitably set in, but i just can't bring myself to long for something that wasn't mine to begin with. i feel so strongly about how right we are for each other, yet i feel just as strongly about this being all wrong. i don't think i'm making any sense, which is how i know this is real. i'm going against everything my heart is telling me, but the one holding the reins now is my head.
so this is how it feels to really let someone go. it kills.