The Nothing-ness of Being

[tearsoftheliger]

I feel so cold today.... I've never felt this cold.... I think it really represents how I feel inside...so cold. So I have this crush, I just wish they'd notice me....oh why can't they notice me (but maybe they'll notice me after they read this entry that I wrote to get thier attention... but its not suppose to look like i wanted to get thier attention but they'll get it and be like whoah its about me and it saves me the time of actually having to interact with them face to face). So I'm just at home right now listening to the Hip/Trendy/Flavor of the week/ Sad Sack/ Experimental/Super Incredible/Super Independent band, and I just feel so alone.... so alone and the only thing that could help me was spilling my guts to a computer screen. So I like stayed awake last night to watch the sunset...or sunrise, I don't know which one... all I know is I watched one of them and had really deep thoughts... I'm very deep. So I wrote this poem yesterday and it goes like this:
Birds, are beautiful.
Birds, like to fly.
Fly, Fly, Fly
I am a bird.
I think that this poem really represents how I feel inside.... like a bird....so much like bird. I'm a very myseterious person.. soo deep and mysterious, I really am a dark and totured soul who keeps to himself(OH .. except for the million messages a day I leave on here that describe my every thought and action).....ummm... but yeah I'm I really am so mysterious. I think i'm going to leave now, i'm going to watch some Really Cool/Really Independent movie. I'll post later.... but it doesn't mean i'm not mysterious