unusually unusual
okay. why would i have moved here, if i knew i was only going to stay for 10 months? to just make friends and then leave? it's kinda like a waste of time, or just time away. but i didn't just want time away. i wanted to stay away. if i knew i was only going to be here for 10-11 months i wouldn't of came and put all this stress on myself in the end..having to leave.
i mean, this really makes no sense to me. what would really be the point in coming here for one year of school than going back? i could of just stayed in NS and finished school this year! but instead i took another year out of my life to live HERE and finish school. and i did it to stay OUT of Nova Scotia. am i the only one who thinks of these things? i just pretty much wasted a year of my life being here and making new friends, having a new, better life, and then sadness having to leave it all. i know it's an experience and all, but is the experience worth it in the end, having to leave with just memories?
..i still don't know what to do now, i haven't even had time to sit and just THINK about it. there are times when i see something that reminds me of the decision i have to make and leads me to start thinking about it.. and it just makes me want to cry. i wish i had people to help me make this decision, it's harder than you think. but people either want me to go, or want me to stay. but i have to base this on what i want. and i don't even know what i want. so what am i suppose to do, with such little time to decide what i really want...
i mean, this really makes no sense to me. what would really be the point in coming here for one year of school than going back? i could of just stayed in NS and finished school this year! but instead i took another year out of my life to live HERE and finish school. and i did it to stay OUT of Nova Scotia. am i the only one who thinks of these things? i just pretty much wasted a year of my life being here and making new friends, having a new, better life, and then sadness having to leave it all. i know it's an experience and all, but is the experience worth it in the end, having to leave with just memories?
..i still don't know what to do now, i haven't even had time to sit and just THINK about it. there are times when i see something that reminds me of the decision i have to make and leads me to start thinking about it.. and it just makes me want to cry. i wish i had people to help me make this decision, it's harder than you think. but people either want me to go, or want me to stay. but i have to base this on what i want. and i don't even know what i want. so what am i suppose to do, with such little time to decide what i really want...