byron has forsaken me
whenever i go through my cds with someone and come across a phatcorpse cd they ask who they are. "thats my band" i usually reply but over time i feel more and more foolish. i feel like im clinging to a shadow of something beautiful. i miss playing music so much its like a hole in my heart. every time larry wants to "get the band back together" i get excited and try like hell to make it happen. but larry seems to give up. i know we're adults now and have other priorities but its like he doesnt even want to talk to me. people have told me to just get a new bassist and make a new band. i didnt really think before saying "but larry is MY bassist" i thought about it later and fell that larry isnt just that. larry is my brother. larry is my friend. but larry is gone...
larry doesnt know im homeless, larry doesnt know my dad was in the hospital, larry doesnt know my phone was stolen so i cant tell him these things. i miss music but i also miss one of my best friends.sometimes i feel like he doesnt care anymore because he has his own life now but i guess i just need to let go. i give up. i was stupid to hold on this long.
larry doesnt know im homeless, larry doesnt know my dad was in the hospital, larry doesnt know my phone was stolen so i cant tell him these things. i miss music but i also miss one of my best friends.sometimes i feel like he doesnt care anymore because he has his own life now but i guess i just need to let go. i give up. i was stupid to hold on this long.