dismal
dark and dismal sloly fading, loosing all hope and respect, and i watch my life slowly passing slowly drainign to the abyss of hell.. and all that tourments me so, misreable, insane, and wishing i couldnt fell anything... hating ,yself and life and ost of the people in it i desire to be alone where i can fade inot the abyss and be forgotten about, not to have to deal with the day to day feelings of pain and torture , i watch as my inner soul melts away... to tired to weak to even move, to budge or do anything that involves te life of the living... Feeling used, useless and forgotten, and to sit there and not know what is lies nor truth i cant help but almost start to hate you, hate you for making me feel this way, hate you for putting me to te back burner so many a time and yet i hate myself for letting it happen. i never understood y i woudl let it happen or anything of that nature... But it does and im still here and i cant gelp but want to question y ... Why is it all to damn confusing, why is it all to damn annoying adn frustrating, i will never understand.... The darkness slowly surroundsme and yet i cant make it stop, i trry and try and it darkens quicker every time i try to wake... cover it up and hide it all, what a perfect plan until it all falls, and comes crashing down into hell. like so many times before............