tired
So im really tired worn out and frustrated.. im not sure if im appreciated at all if im noticed or even cared about.... i feel pushed aside cast away and just around when something is needed to be done...
I feel like he doesnt noitce or care about me any more.. he has alot on his mind i know, but its like i have disappeared.. and its slightly aggrivating.. liek for examplel yesterday i asked him what are u doing tomorrow he said im going to gardner to clean up and shit (meanign the project he was doing for soemone) and said he would be there till about 6ish i said great because i get out at abotu 6ish and i will go to his house and wait for him to get home.. now its liek 7 at night not a big deal but i have been waiting fo rhim an dhe hasnt come home we are sapose to go to the drive ins but by the time he gets back thats nto gunna happen... i miss him im tired and most certainly thirsty as hell... i want him to come home and be liek hay hows it goin and like hug me or kissme or something.. but I know that when he gets home he is gunna sit in front of his computer desk light up a ciggerette and start playgin some game...and im just guna lay on the bed watch tv which i hate doing and talk ot ymself cause its ALWAYS like that.. and im gunna eventually try to get his attention and by the time i do get his attention it will be toime fo rme to go home and im gunna be piss tired and then it will be like comming here was for nothing..... GAH!! so tired and im sick and i just want him to come take care of me, like i do him all so many a time....
I feel like he doesnt noitce or care about me any more.. he has alot on his mind i know, but its like i have disappeared.. and its slightly aggrivating.. liek for examplel yesterday i asked him what are u doing tomorrow he said im going to gardner to clean up and shit (meanign the project he was doing for soemone) and said he would be there till about 6ish i said great because i get out at abotu 6ish and i will go to his house and wait for him to get home.. now its liek 7 at night not a big deal but i have been waiting fo rhim an dhe hasnt come home we are sapose to go to the drive ins but by the time he gets back thats nto gunna happen... i miss him im tired and most certainly thirsty as hell... i want him to come home and be liek hay hows it goin and like hug me or kissme or something.. but I know that when he gets home he is gunna sit in front of his computer desk light up a ciggerette and start playgin some game...and im just guna lay on the bed watch tv which i hate doing and talk ot ymself cause its ALWAYS like that.. and im gunna eventually try to get his attention and by the time i do get his attention it will be toime fo rme to go home and im gunna be piss tired and then it will be like comming here was for nothing..... GAH!! so tired and im sick and i just want him to come take care of me, like i do him all so many a time....