i love my new sexy car its so mmm hotttt
so i never thought i coudl have cried so hard in my life the last tiem i cried as hard was when todd past away, well last night he made me hurt so much, i cried iwas brokemn i still feel broken, he made me feel liek a queen and he always came to my rescue when i was in trouble. nowi feel nothing like a black whole the cant be filled no matter how many times you try to fill it. its endless my heart has shattered and doesnt want to stay glued back together this time... after all of that right before he went home he kissed me and said "nikki i honestly dont think her and i are ging to last so please dont be like this " and i just wanted to smack him. yes i am in love with him and woudl die for him but he cant keep doing this to me every tiem she decides to dissapear and reappear again.... soem day when he wants to turn around to me i wont be there for him that way . my love will have dewindled into purley frinedship love and nothign more. and i can see it now if that happens he will be very upset. but yea well i guess he and i are over so nikki is back to being her old single sexy self