Holidays 2009!
I love spending time at my Nana's house. Like Love it. But sometimes I get a little bitter because I miss out on so much time with my friends. This wasn't really a problem when I saw all of my friends at least 5 days a week. But now, even the friends I go to school with I don't see very often. And this frustrates me. Family is important too though! So I will find a better balance next year. I don't really see myself visiting my Dad too often. This trip I think is sufficient.
Monique is fine. She's not some witch lurking in the shadows or anything. I think my Dad wanted someone to take care of him. I think it has more to do with attention than anything. That doesn't change how I feel towards him though. He ran away. And hes a jerk...to put it kindly. And I don't want to make it sound like it all about money But I think there is something to be said when you leave your wife and 3 children in debt because you took out a 2nd mortgage. When you refuse monetary support beyond child support. Kids are expensive, college is expensive. But Dad just bought 2 new cars and a big new house. I'm bitter. I'll be honest. It would be different if he couldn't help, but its not a can't its a won't. I'd even forgive the won't if he at least acted like a father every once in a while. He bought Mercer the same toys he bought me. I'm annoyed. And bitter. Hurt maybe? I don't know. Am I completely irrational?
In other news, I have big plans for 2009. I think I should compile a more concrete list of my goals for the near and a not so near future. Plus crossing things off of lists is extremely gratifying.
Monique is fine. She's not some witch lurking in the shadows or anything. I think my Dad wanted someone to take care of him. I think it has more to do with attention than anything. That doesn't change how I feel towards him though. He ran away. And hes a jerk...to put it kindly. And I don't want to make it sound like it all about money But I think there is something to be said when you leave your wife and 3 children in debt because you took out a 2nd mortgage. When you refuse monetary support beyond child support. Kids are expensive, college is expensive. But Dad just bought 2 new cars and a big new house. I'm bitter. I'll be honest. It would be different if he couldn't help, but its not a can't its a won't. I'd even forgive the won't if he at least acted like a father every once in a while. He bought Mercer the same toys he bought me. I'm annoyed. And bitter. Hurt maybe? I don't know. Am I completely irrational?
In other news, I have big plans for 2009. I think I should compile a more concrete list of my goals for the near and a not so near future. Plus crossing things off of lists is extremely gratifying.