a secret letter
Theres this feeling in the pit of my stomach. tingling yet nausea, utter glee yet confusion. Butterflys the more common word for it. used since forever. the feeling of over excitement and apprehension. i get those feelings around u. and im driven crazy by it. i love it though. i'd endure it everyday if i had the chance. but no, distance comes between us as do elders. the ones who control my life but hardly yours. but this feeling is a signal to me,, it signifies this is more then what i expected. even though i have these feelings im so incredubly comfortable with u. being wrapped in ur arms and smelling ur scent has got to be heaven on earth. i miss it so much. times like these i wish i had a thesaurus to help me to describe these feelings i have for u but i doubt a book could help me. i love u with all that i am. it wont stop i no... ive tryed. and failed horribly. but now with these feelings and knowing they're real and knowing i wont see u for the next month is eating me up inside. yes 1 month is better than 2 but time away from u is time away from u. doesnt matter how u look at it its all the same. *fighting back tears* i miss u so much, and it really doesnt make sense but babe i love u and cant stand being with out u.