jil how wuz i supost to know that he didnt know. u never told me. you talk to him more then u talk to me i figured he already knew, he didnt say nething after i told him. im sorry ok. u cant xpect me to know everything. i figured he knew. and i didnt mean to cause, yet more, drama with your life. im sorry im such a fuck-up. u always knew i was a shit friend. its a wounder u havent gotten used to it by now. im sure u'd never intenchentally screw jake over. but i know u, and i know how u are. stuff happens ino. im sry ive gotten all mixed up in u and denis/jake's relationships i really dont mean to. i try to stay out of it i no its really none of my business but i try to help i guess, cuz ive seen u at ur worst b/c of bois and i fucking hate it. i dont want u to end up feeling guilty about something u might do now or something. (u know how u beat ur self up about things a lot, i dont like to see u do that.) and yeah about twisting ur words, if i did i didnt mean to, all i know is that u told me that u might, it wasnt a deffinate, besides i never said it was a deffinate. i knew it probably wasnt gonna happen, and it'd just be one of those things to dream about. im sry it didnt come off that way to denis, maybe he miss took it. neways, i dont see how Im screwing U over. U make UR desisions, if u dont trust me, dont tell me stuff, but if u do and u dont want me to tell ne1, tell me not to tell n1, i know we've had this conversation before i need to know, otherwise i end up getting my ears ripped off because of saying something i didnt no i wasnt supost to say, but really if u think about it, it was an accident---totally-- i didnt know he didnt no. IM SOO SORRY, for fucking shit up... AGAIN. honestly i couldnt live with outh u but if its too much for us to whatever, be friends, i get it... i guess... ill have to...
Re: uh huh...ifonlykissesMay 20 2005, 22:22:54 UTC
missy. how bout this. i we have a conversation, and its confidential. that way there are no problems with you not knowing not to tell or somthing because its just that. some things are okay like jokes or somthing but comeon now. i'm sick have having people bitch at me because of somthing i didn't say or do. i dont expect you to know everything but i do expect you to know not to tell denis about personal shit about me, especially when it involves jake. what i tell you is mostly confidential. i have gotten used to us having problems but i dont want a repeat of 5th grade where there was a fight everyday. i know i fuck up sometimes, so do you so yea. but i didn't get involved in your mistakes and you dont need to get invovled in mine. i mean friendly advice is fine and all. but dont scold me. your not my mother your my friend. it's hard to trust you yes. its been hard since that whole denis thing. thats something you have to earn. i'm not going to tell you when you need to keep secrets. figure it out in your head what is appropriate or not. dont worry about the drama its done. i have trust issues with denis too. so its not just you. i'm still here for you so dont stress it. just sometimes you really piss me off..ya know?! still your friend, +JiL
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still your friend,
+JiL
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