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[tearsofanguish]

I'm a royal fuck up.

I made it through the agreement for the day and all of today.

But again, I was gone for the wrong reasons not to post this.

I have let you down.. I am so sorry.

I've let Bianca down.
I've let God down.
I've let myself down...

What's worse, I enjoyed it.
I enjoyed it because in my mind, it was Bianca.
I was with her.
Closest to her i've been in a very long time.

I guess when you open your eyes, that's when all your problems start.

I'm a monster.
I'm a disgusting pig-headed monster.

Shoot me, get it over it.

God have mercy on my soul...