The butterfly...
I lay down in my own bed today.
Pulled off my boots, pulled off my shirt and set my glasses down on the table.
Just lying there thinking about life.
Staring at the ceiling.
The soft cotton of the blanket felt good against my skin.
Smells like Bianca's perfume.
I couldn't fight back the tears thinking we'll never make love in this bed again.
They started rolling down my cheek.
But not in a painful way.
More in disappointment.
I was never much good to her while she was well but she loved me anyway.
I want to give her the best.
If nothing else, to make up for everytime I backed out on something I promised her.
I stretched out across the bed, it felt good to be home and be able to relax.
No phone calls, no friends visiting, no dog, no television.
It was so peaceful, I fell asleep on my stomach facing the wall...
I got eight hours of sleep! (WOW!)
That won't happen again.
I was lucky and I am so grateful that I can rest.
I've been talking to the nurse at the hospital.
She said she might allow Bianca to come home before Christmas because all she has is a few stitches.
That truely made Bianca smile and that made me feel so warm and fuzzy inside.
That would be the best Christmas gift ever.
Pulled off my boots, pulled off my shirt and set my glasses down on the table.
Just lying there thinking about life.
Staring at the ceiling.
The soft cotton of the blanket felt good against my skin.
Smells like Bianca's perfume.
I couldn't fight back the tears thinking we'll never make love in this bed again.
They started rolling down my cheek.
But not in a painful way.
More in disappointment.
I was never much good to her while she was well but she loved me anyway.
I want to give her the best.
If nothing else, to make up for everytime I backed out on something I promised her.
I stretched out across the bed, it felt good to be home and be able to relax.
No phone calls, no friends visiting, no dog, no television.
It was so peaceful, I fell asleep on my stomach facing the wall...
I got eight hours of sleep! (WOW!)
That won't happen again.
I was lucky and I am so grateful that I can rest.
I've been talking to the nurse at the hospital.
She said she might allow Bianca to come home before Christmas because all she has is a few stitches.
That truely made Bianca smile and that made me feel so warm and fuzzy inside.
That would be the best Christmas gift ever.