sick of life
I only wish I knew what I did to deserve all of the things that are going on lately. All the problems with Jen's parents are bugging me so bad, and I dont know how do deal with that...on top of all that my roommmate was up all hours of the night making alot of noise.
I was planning on getting up early and walking up to the Queen Anne Pool, and getting some lap swimming in before I started my day. Usually that helps me start off 2 a good start 4 the day and it makes things alot better. So I went 2 bed around 12:30-1 AM hoping 2 be asleep before Mark came back in. I was asleep when he got back, however he decided 2 make his computer make loud beeping noises that woke me up. I asked him many times to stop the noise, yet he still continued. Finally I threatened to call campus security and have them forcibly stop him, becuase as defined in the handbook here it plainly says "any student trying to sleep must be given the right to do so" and he made noise for probably another minute or so then stopped. It was now 3:30, and I was supposed to get up in an hour and a half 2 go swimming, so needless to say I didnt go this morning.
Oh you may think that that is the end to my crappy day so far...oh not even. So I got up and was puttering around the room and then Ryan came over and we went to lunch and upon my returning form lunch I tried to get back into my room. Only to find that my jey had been stolen off of my key ring during the night. So I went and talked to Res. Life, and they told me to go to security, and so I did so. When I got there, I started talking to the officer and he basically acted like I was lying. Obviously this pissed me off, but I remained calm and told him my story, and he said he would file a report and would call the key guy. Now this leads me to the point where if I am forced to replace my key it will cost me $65, which is a $65 that I do not have. And so now I am just stuck with borrowing a key 24 hours at a time from Security.
You know, I am honestly getting so sick of everything right now. I really just want to give up. It is all just almost becoming too much to handle. I mean the only thing that keeps me going each week is seeing Jen at the end of it. And now I dont even have that. So what is there to keep me going? Seems like absolutely nothing. I just wish that everything would just go away for a while, school, money, parents, lies, everything. I just need some time away where I can get back to my old self, which I feel like I am losing because as I lose these things that I need, I lose myself.
Jen:
Please dont take this as anything please, I need you to help me find myself, me isnt me without having you there to make me happy and feel loved, you are a huge part of me. I need you so bad right now :( I love you so much.
I was planning on getting up early and walking up to the Queen Anne Pool, and getting some lap swimming in before I started my day. Usually that helps me start off 2 a good start 4 the day and it makes things alot better. So I went 2 bed around 12:30-1 AM hoping 2 be asleep before Mark came back in. I was asleep when he got back, however he decided 2 make his computer make loud beeping noises that woke me up. I asked him many times to stop the noise, yet he still continued. Finally I threatened to call campus security and have them forcibly stop him, becuase as defined in the handbook here it plainly says "any student trying to sleep must be given the right to do so" and he made noise for probably another minute or so then stopped. It was now 3:30, and I was supposed to get up in an hour and a half 2 go swimming, so needless to say I didnt go this morning.
Oh you may think that that is the end to my crappy day so far...oh not even. So I got up and was puttering around the room and then Ryan came over and we went to lunch and upon my returning form lunch I tried to get back into my room. Only to find that my jey had been stolen off of my key ring during the night. So I went and talked to Res. Life, and they told me to go to security, and so I did so. When I got there, I started talking to the officer and he basically acted like I was lying. Obviously this pissed me off, but I remained calm and told him my story, and he said he would file a report and would call the key guy. Now this leads me to the point where if I am forced to replace my key it will cost me $65, which is a $65 that I do not have. And so now I am just stuck with borrowing a key 24 hours at a time from Security.
You know, I am honestly getting so sick of everything right now. I really just want to give up. It is all just almost becoming too much to handle. I mean the only thing that keeps me going each week is seeing Jen at the end of it. And now I dont even have that. So what is there to keep me going? Seems like absolutely nothing. I just wish that everything would just go away for a while, school, money, parents, lies, everything. I just need some time away where I can get back to my old self, which I feel like I am losing because as I lose these things that I need, I lose myself.
Jen:
Please dont take this as anything please, I need you to help me find myself, me isnt me without having you there to make me happy and feel loved, you are a huge part of me. I need you so bad right now :( I love you so much.