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so WOW its been soooooooooooooooooo long..i always get on here and read about other people but i just never update.. my life is going a lil nutty right now.. well to update i forget if i put some stuff so if im saying the same things sorry.. well wesley and i are ingaged he asked me befor he got on his plain to go back to AIT.. it was so sweet... well after that i came back to NC.. and ive been sitting on my ass.. doing nothing.. b/c theres nothing to do.. wesley is now in Washington state.. hes been there for about a week.. and come to find out he is going to be getting shiped off to afganastan in a month... what kind of SHIT is that.. hes going to be gone for a year.. maybe more.. i hate the fucking ARMY...stupid assholes.. ewwwwwwwwwww... other then that things have been shity too.. i have a kidney infection. my temp was 104.6 and i had to go to the ER and then did ALOT of shit to me and i was there for 6 hours and the put things in me and ewwwwwwww it wasnt fun.. but my mom was there with me so it wasnt as bad.. then they gave me some meds and i went home..im alot better now.. but sometimes it still hurts and my head hurts bad and i have to get in bed...so all in all righ tnow im not very happy with my life.. my friend carrie is getting married april 2 im so happy for her.. but i prob wont be able to get to go to it b/c i have no money and dont have a way to get to ohio.. :( thats so shity.. it makes me want to cry just thinking about it... b/c i want to be there so bad b/c its like the biggest day of her life and i want to be a part of it.. BLAH.. im going to stop talking about that...hmm other then that.. ive been reading again.. watching TV.. from being sick i got down to 104 lbs...i was at 118. and i sleep ALOT..hopefuly i wes will be flying me out to WA soom for a week or so i want to see him so bad.. i miss my baby. i would give anything to be able to give him a hug and kiss.. a few days ago i called everyone.. well my close friends it was nice to see how everyone was doing.. and everyone seems to be doing alot better then i am..im happy for them.. but you know thats how it always seems to go for me.. when everythings going so good for me and they couldnt get any better everyone else is doing sort of crapy but then when everyone else is doing good my life gos to shit.. but oh well.. im happy for everyone else..